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Sorry I haven't updated much lately. It's been pretty crazy.
Life has been so totally upside down lately. Spring break ended. And it was nice while it lasted, I guess. But then things started to flip upside down. One of my closest friends has had sort of a catastrophic family issue [which I really can't go into right now. :(( ] And then another friend had a very sad experience that is hauntingly familiar to a trauma that occured in my family only about a year ago. It is all seeming to pile up. And fast. Really, really fast. I mean. WHOA.
One last thing.....
a confession:
I think I am growing numb to shock. So much has shocked/hurt/thrilled/surprised me over the past year and a half that I don't think anything will ever be able shake me up again. And that kind of scares me. I mean, isn't life sorta supposed to be spontaneous? What if I become immune to it?
Thoughts?
I guess I am asking God to continue to show me things in life that surprise me. Good and bad. I want to meet people with different points of views. I want to find joy in small, everyday things. I want to love people with total abandon. I want to laugh and hurt and cry and just FEEL SOMETHING. I want to live a life I'm proud of. I want to look back and have no regrets. I want to live my life to the fullest.