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Oh dear.
Well, mom had a concert that she wanted us all to go to. She told me that I had to call Naomi and ask her to come. Well, I told her I couldn't, because I had missed two weeks worth of Patakis chats, and I was responsible for that, so I would have to go to that instead of the concert...and yes, I DID want to go to the concert, as I knew the soloist and the music was cool.
Five minutes later, she shoved me into my room, told me I couldn't leave it until I cleaned it (I never did...heh), and that I couldn't use the computer for a long time. Well, thanks.
I missed dinner that night. I had to wait until everyone left just to get out of my room, and then I was alone. I'm alone now.
But I called Emoni that night and even though I was kind of in a bad mood, she cheered me up.
When mom came home, along with everyone else, and I started trying to talk to her, she pretended not to hear a thing I said. God. So I went to bed, still giggling from the phone call.
The next morning, my mom makes waffles just to let me know that she's treating everyone ELSE special, then everyone, even my dad, goes to church without even knowing I'm in the house. So I drew some more, watched tv, whatever. My mom pulled out the internet connection.
One o'clock, and she informs me I have to get dressed. When I refuse, simply because I wasn't going anywhere today anyway (or maybe that I don't want her talking to me being limited to commands), she decides to go balistic on me. Fun. She told me, once again, that I needed help (and she vowed for the second time she was going to get me some) because I was so unsocial, I never called any of my friends to do something (like Katie does constantly?). I scoffed, laughing at the "never calling any of my friends" part. Bad idea, as that gave her the opportunity to talk about calling Emoni as well. She asked why I was calling her, and that I couldn't call her anymore because she could "barely afford to pay the bills anyway." (haha...yeah right.)
That really bugs me, because quite frankly, I cost so little, just a few bucks worth of food and electricity and water, while my sisters are out buying everything and Katie needs this and Caroline thinks this is so cute. I haven't boughten anything in months, not off of my mother's money anyway. The single thing I want right now, more than anything I've ever wanted, is to have these phone calls, and they're taken away from me. They make me happier than I've ever been before, and yet I'm told I can't have it.
After a while, mom put the internet connection back, because she had to check stuff, so here I am.
Emoni called a little later...and her mother did basically the same as mine. She can't use the computer or call me (she was pretending I was someone else, heh), and her family ditched her to go out and go shopping, like mine did a few minutes ago. Being alone sucks only when you know everyone left you just because you aren't good enough for them.
God, this is pissing me off so much. So neither of us can talk to each other, hmm? Why the hell not? It's all illogical. It makes me want to cry. I started crying before and didn't realize it. The phone calls mean so much to me, maybe too much. But honestly, they're the best part of my day, and I look forwards to them all the time.
I'm considering packing up all my things, buying a plane ticket, and moving into Emoni's house. Anyone want to help?
Well, mom had a concert that she wanted us all to go to. She told me that I had to call Naomi and ask her to come. Well, I told her I couldn't, because I had missed two weeks worth of Patakis chats, and I was responsible for that, so I would have to go to that instead of the concert...and yes, I DID want to go to the concert, as I knew the soloist and the music was cool.
Five minutes later, she shoved me into my room, told me I couldn't leave it until I cleaned it (I never did...heh), and that I couldn't use the computer for a long time. Well, thanks.
I missed dinner that night. I had to wait until everyone left just to get out of my room, and then I was alone. I'm alone now.
But I called Emoni that night and even though I was kind of in a bad mood, she cheered me up.
When mom came home, along with everyone else, and I started trying to talk to her, she pretended not to hear a thing I said. God. So I went to bed, still giggling from the phone call.
The next morning, my mom makes waffles just to let me know that she's treating everyone ELSE special, then everyone, even my dad, goes to church without even knowing I'm in the house. So I drew some more, watched tv, whatever. My mom pulled out the internet connection.
One o'clock, and she informs me I have to get dressed. When I refuse, simply because I wasn't going anywhere today anyway (or maybe that I don't want her talking to me being limited to commands), she decides to go balistic on me. Fun. She told me, once again, that I needed help (and she vowed for the second time she was going to get me some) because I was so unsocial, I never called any of my friends to do something (like Katie does constantly?). I scoffed, laughing at the "never calling any of my friends" part. Bad idea, as that gave her the opportunity to talk about calling Emoni as well. She asked why I was calling her, and that I couldn't call her anymore because she could "barely afford to pay the bills anyway." (haha...yeah right.)
That really bugs me, because quite frankly, I cost so little, just a few bucks worth of food and electricity and water, while my sisters are out buying everything and Katie needs this and Caroline thinks this is so cute. I haven't boughten anything in months, not off of my mother's money anyway. The single thing I want right now, more than anything I've ever wanted, is to have these phone calls, and they're taken away from me. They make me happier than I've ever been before, and yet I'm told I can't have it.
After a while, mom put the internet connection back, because she had to check stuff, so here I am.
Emoni called a little later...and her mother did basically the same as mine. She can't use the computer or call me (she was pretending I was someone else, heh), and her family ditched her to go out and go shopping, like mine did a few minutes ago. Being alone sucks only when you know everyone left you just because you aren't good enough for them.
God, this is pissing me off so much. So neither of us can talk to each other, hmm? Why the hell not? It's all illogical. It makes me want to cry. I started crying before and didn't realize it. The phone calls mean so much to me, maybe too much. But honestly, they're the best part of my day, and I look forwards to them all the time.
I'm considering packing up all my things, buying a plane ticket, and moving into Emoni's house. Anyone want to help?