Think about it!!!!22leslie22August 4 2001, 22:25:00 UTC
Laura, I want you to know something. I may have had a good point but, you have to understand, i did not DEFEND your name because your name never needed defending. I am sure, no, i am positive that Justin never meant to make it come acrossed as you may have taken it. He misses you, you know that though by now i am sure. What i wrote didnt come from any one elses heart but my own. It hurts me to know that what some people want in life, can have it but in a way they are to scared.Everyone has some fear. A fear of being shot down. A fear of rejection. A fear of being hurt. What is yours? If you have one.But Laura understand something, what i wrote to Justin doesnt just go to Justin. It goes to you to. I am sure he has all of those fears that you have as well. He hurts just as bad. He misses you just as much. A fear can be a good thing and a bad thing all at once. In your case, and his, i think it COULD BE, a good thing. You two have the same fears in common. Now your next step is to figure out how to over come them and either move on, or work together. You two, together, what is there to fear? I know and i am sure you do hurt. (Believe me i have been shot in the foot a few times) but where are you going to be if you dont stop running from your fears? What I mean is. Life has handed you a challenge. Or a puzzle if you will. You have to fit the right peices back together and not question your choices as you move closer and closer to making your "picture from the puzzle" Laura, everyone gets hurt. At the same time. Life will always hand you a second chance. You just have to act upon that chance and stop being scared. Here is your second chance. He is a phone call away. So what is causing such a procrastination?
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Re: Think about it!!!!luciouslifeAugust 5 2001, 08:20:12 UTC
"What is fear but voices airy? Whispering harm where harm is not."
I'm fearful, but that is okay, it gives me something to overcome. My greatest fear is to not be trusted or to not be able to trust someone else. My other is to let somone I love pass me by. By simply identifying my fears it is easier for me to understand what I need to do. What do you fear Leslie? The puzzle that you were talking about....I think it couldn't be completed because I was missing important pieces, but I found them after starting my own live journal and writing down my feelings. Once my puzzle is completed, I need to choose if I want to glue the pieces together that way it won't break back apart. I would hate to lose parts of it again. I fully understand how everyone gets hurt, and after each time, we'll always be stronger people. Check out my live journal and let me know what you think. tell me whats on your mind
Re: Think about it!!!!22leslie22August 5 2001, 12:34:47 UTC
What is my biggest fear?
Many things.
My smallest fear, rejection.
My main fear, being alone
My biggest fear, being doubted.
Laura i do want you to know that I do know how you do feel someone always will have shared the same heartbreak as you. In this "for instance" we just happened to stumble acrossed each other. I am writing you by past expieriences. What i have held in my heart for quite some time. I have managed to love and be loved in return with just as much endearment. I know that i am loved by someone else. I know that i love him with just as much intensity. So if i die tomorrow, I will have died knowing that i was happy, i was loved, and i was appreciated. Yet at the same time i was doubted, i was questioned, and i was treated unfairly. I got knocked down the same way you did only your case is different. But all in all it is still pain. But, i got up this morning, (well this after noon) and started my day a new day. I pushed what happened last night to last night. Because of love, i am able to forgive him. Are you willing to do the same? Because he makes me happy, i am going to be there to listen when he doesnt always agree with me. At least he is telling me something with out fearing it/me. Would you be willing to do the same? Justin is a great guy. So is mine. But all in all, every one makes bad mistakes and then they will want a second chance. But, with love, you will always have that. That second chance. Put together your puzzle and he will take care of the rest. You have already found the peices that you need. So stop, take a long hard look at your puzzle, and decide if you are going to take the easy way out which is decide o its to hard and now i am just gonna give up. Or if you are going to kick back, understand what goes where, and frame it.
Re: Think about it!!!!22leslie22August 5 2001, 12:43:48 UTC
If you know your bible, there is a passage in it and it tell what love does and does not do and in one of them it says "Love does not doubt" and i am truely sorry. wether you want an apology or not! I fucked up and im sorry it even happened. it won't happen again. I'll be there for my baby, and won't doubt or question. It was a fuck up on my behalf. and it jus wasn't alcohol. so don't think that. after today im done drinking again. i got into drinking again and this is exactly why i quit, i hurt people b/c i say shit and don't care and don't think about it. So im done once again. IM SORRY BABY, it won't ever happen again.
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I'm fearful, but that is okay, it gives me something to overcome. My greatest fear is to not be trusted or to not be able to trust someone else. My other is to let somone I love pass me by. By simply identifying my fears it is easier for me to understand what I need to do. What do you fear Leslie? The puzzle that you were talking about....I think it couldn't be completed because I was missing important pieces, but I found them after starting my own live journal and writing down my feelings. Once my puzzle is completed, I need to choose if I want to glue the pieces together that way it won't break back apart. I would hate to lose parts of it again. I fully understand how everyone gets hurt, and after each time, we'll always be stronger people. Check out my live journal and let me know what you think. tell me whats on your mind
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Many things.
My smallest fear, rejection.
My main fear, being alone
My biggest fear, being doubted.
Laura i do want you to know that I do know how you do feel someone always will have shared the same heartbreak as you. In this "for instance" we just happened to stumble acrossed each other. I am writing you by past expieriences. What i have held in my heart for quite some time. I have managed to love and be loved in return with just as much endearment. I know that i am loved by someone else. I know that i love him with just as much intensity. So if i die tomorrow, I will have died knowing that i was happy, i was loved, and i was appreciated. Yet at the same time i was doubted, i was questioned, and i was treated unfairly. I got knocked down the same way you did only your case is different. But all in all it is still pain. But, i got up this morning, (well this after noon) and started my day a new day. I pushed what happened last night to last night. Because of love, i am able to forgive him. Are you willing to do the same? Because he makes me happy, i am going to be there to listen when he doesnt always agree with me. At least he is telling me something with out fearing it/me. Would you be willing to do the same? Justin is a great guy. So is mine. But all in all, every one makes bad mistakes and then they will want a second chance. But, with love, you will always have that. That second chance. Put together your puzzle and he will take care of the rest. You have already found the peices that you need. So stop, take a long hard look at your puzzle, and decide if you are going to take the easy way out which is decide o its to hard and now i am just gonna give up. Or if you are going to kick back, understand what goes where, and frame it.
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