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Dear diary
Excluding last night
I hadnt left the house in a week
I feel some severe mind crushing depression going on
I dont know whats up
Its all catching up to me
I just cant get out of bed anymore
My mom brought me tons of fleece to line my windows with
Actually she tried to
But i wouldnt answer the door
So she left it on the porch
anyways
I dont have the energy for that shit
So ive been sleeping under like ten blankets
Its amazing
Ive never been so warm
Same day
Tons of other people knocked on my door
I didnt answer any of them
Which is lame
Cause liz came and tried to take me to buffet
But i didnt answer
Too bad
Some peanut butter chicken would have fixed my soul for a moment
So the other day
Monday
We had a show at chop suey
Well
On the way up it started fucking snowing
So it takes us three hours to get to seattle
People are sliding off the road all around us
We are in a pickup truck with all of our gear
Sliding all over the fucking road
So we get to the bar
And the fucking show is cancelled
I almost ate shit trying to walk to the door
On the way home
The roads are completely iced
Everyone is wrecking
The truck was sliding all over the place
So we parked in a walgreens parking lot
and went to sleep
Well alex slept
I sat there smoking cigarettes and cursing god all night long
So we take off at 8 in the morning
It was so icy the we slid through a fucking red light
We also almost slid into a truck
If you know me you know how much i hate the road
It was the most serious severe fucked up panic attack i have had in a long time
And it lasted for hours
I still havent recovered
It took us from 630 pm
to 9 am
To go from Tacoma to Seattle and back
So ive been hiding out
If you come by my house and i dont answer
Its not personal
I fucking hate everybody
My "friends" are the biggest most disappointing shitbags ive ever met
I went to taco del mar to get some water for my brain this morning
And a guy i know was working there
And he offered me a free burrito
I accepted
and when i looked at it
The wrapper said "The man" on it
Shit like that makes my day
People who are nice for no reason
and ask nothing of you
Make my fucking world
If i dont go on vacation soon
Im going to kill myself
Im not joking
If you dont like my pessimism
Sit on it
Excluding last night
I hadnt left the house in a week
I feel some severe mind crushing depression going on
I dont know whats up
Its all catching up to me
I just cant get out of bed anymore
My mom brought me tons of fleece to line my windows with
Actually she tried to
But i wouldnt answer the door
So she left it on the porch
anyways
I dont have the energy for that shit
So ive been sleeping under like ten blankets
Its amazing
Ive never been so warm
Same day
Tons of other people knocked on my door
I didnt answer any of them
Which is lame
Cause liz came and tried to take me to buffet
But i didnt answer
Too bad
Some peanut butter chicken would have fixed my soul for a moment
So the other day
Monday
We had a show at chop suey
Well
On the way up it started fucking snowing
So it takes us three hours to get to seattle
People are sliding off the road all around us
We are in a pickup truck with all of our gear
Sliding all over the fucking road
So we get to the bar
And the fucking show is cancelled
I almost ate shit trying to walk to the door
On the way home
The roads are completely iced
Everyone is wrecking
The truck was sliding all over the place
So we parked in a walgreens parking lot
and went to sleep
Well alex slept
I sat there smoking cigarettes and cursing god all night long
So we take off at 8 in the morning
It was so icy the we slid through a fucking red light
We also almost slid into a truck
If you know me you know how much i hate the road
It was the most serious severe fucked up panic attack i have had in a long time
And it lasted for hours
I still havent recovered
It took us from 630 pm
to 9 am
To go from Tacoma to Seattle and back
So ive been hiding out
If you come by my house and i dont answer
Its not personal
I fucking hate everybody
My "friends" are the biggest most disappointing shitbags ive ever met
I went to taco del mar to get some water for my brain this morning
And a guy i know was working there
And he offered me a free burrito
I accepted
and when i looked at it
The wrapper said "The man" on it
Shit like that makes my day
People who are nice for no reason
and ask nothing of you
Make my fucking world
If i dont go on vacation soon
Im going to kill myself
Im not joking
If you dont like my pessimism
Sit on it