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Today i am not sure what is going on but i think i have a few things figured out...one is that i dont think im depressed because my life is going back to the way things were i think chad is the one making me depressed. When i was in florida i was sooo happy and nothing made me upset and i was chilled out but when i get home im stressed, depressed and always upset and fighting. Im sick of it! I think sean (from hot_like_woah__) was right. He didnt think things were going to change and i am sooo confused. I just want to be happy and have a man who loves me not hurts me all the time and mentally abuses me. Constantly yelling at me and mad at me. NEVER happy when he is with me unless of course he is getting a piece of ass.
Now my father said that while im out there again i will have time to think about things and whether or not i want to stay with him because right now things are so messed up. Its obvious that he is unsure about our relationship because he was asking his brother for advice and lied to me about and told me his brother was just talking shit about me. If he is that unsure about "us" then maybe i was right the first time and leaving but it hurts so much i just dont think im that strong. I dont know if i can really leave him:*( I love him so much and i dont want to hurt anymore then i already do and i dont want paige to end up hurt but i know if i stay i will and if i leave i will. What am i suppose to do?!?! please someone help me if you can what kind of advice does anyone have for me.
Now my father said that while im out there again i will have time to think about things and whether or not i want to stay with him because right now things are so messed up. Its obvious that he is unsure about our relationship because he was asking his brother for advice and lied to me about and told me his brother was just talking shit about me. If he is that unsure about "us" then maybe i was right the first time and leaving but it hurts so much i just dont think im that strong. I dont know if i can really leave him:*( I love him so much and i dont want to hurt anymore then i already do and i dont want paige to end up hurt but i know if i stay i will and if i leave i will. What am i suppose to do?!?! please someone help me if you can what kind of advice does anyone have for me.