yupyup
HAPPY THOUGHT: yupyup. that little phrase seems to be my word of the week, so i've decided to incoparate it into everything i do lately.
it would seem i'm in trouble. i love someone, very deeply and intensly, it actually kinda scares me how much. but our circumstances dont warrent our logically being togeter. so we're not techincally. its a long boring story that i'm not getting into now. but the whole point of all that is that love surprises even the best of us.
after my son was born, i figures, rationally, that i wouldnt be with anyone for a while. i needed to get my shit straight and take care of my baby. besides, the realtionship i'd just ended kinda took the fun outta it all... the other,long one, before that didnt help much either! so i wasn't looking, at all. i simply couldnt be bothered, i had other, more important things to do and take care of. i didnt have the energy or time to invest in someone else. yet, i fell in love.
and its all gone to crap. its like someones idea of a cruel joke. heres the right person (?) and were going to make it damn near to impossible for it to work out between you two! HA! or so it would seem. because thats the story of my life, heres something/one you really want and bam! heres the catch... like with my son, i've always wanted kids, loads and loads of them. yet the first one i have, he just came so much earlier than i expected him too. yet, hes the best thing that ever has, or will happen to me. when all yous have kids you'll get it, promise. its not something explainable. just like when you know its the right person...
intresting thing happened the other day. saw my exs mother, the one i dated forever! and heard some interesting news. it seems that, we'll call him J., is getting married! holy crap of all holy craps, what the fuck!?! i definalty dont want him back, but hell, he isnt suppossed to get married either. hes suppossed to be miserable for all his days. or something like that. not that J. was a bad guy, he just wanted a lot of things from me, including and most important to him, a personality overhaul, not something i could do.
anyway things are just moving so damn fast around me, wish a had like a slowmotion button. just to give me time to catch up. like i feel i'm getting left behind and theres something i'm really suppossed to be seeing...
it would seem i'm in trouble. i love someone, very deeply and intensly, it actually kinda scares me how much. but our circumstances dont warrent our logically being togeter. so we're not techincally. its a long boring story that i'm not getting into now. but the whole point of all that is that love surprises even the best of us.
after my son was born, i figures, rationally, that i wouldnt be with anyone for a while. i needed to get my shit straight and take care of my baby. besides, the realtionship i'd just ended kinda took the fun outta it all... the other,long one, before that didnt help much either! so i wasn't looking, at all. i simply couldnt be bothered, i had other, more important things to do and take care of. i didnt have the energy or time to invest in someone else. yet, i fell in love.
and its all gone to crap. its like someones idea of a cruel joke. heres the right person (?) and were going to make it damn near to impossible for it to work out between you two! HA! or so it would seem. because thats the story of my life, heres something/one you really want and bam! heres the catch... like with my son, i've always wanted kids, loads and loads of them. yet the first one i have, he just came so much earlier than i expected him too. yet, hes the best thing that ever has, or will happen to me. when all yous have kids you'll get it, promise. its not something explainable. just like when you know its the right person...
intresting thing happened the other day. saw my exs mother, the one i dated forever! and heard some interesting news. it seems that, we'll call him J., is getting married! holy crap of all holy craps, what the fuck!?! i definalty dont want him back, but hell, he isnt suppossed to get married either. hes suppossed to be miserable for all his days. or something like that. not that J. was a bad guy, he just wanted a lot of things from me, including and most important to him, a personality overhaul, not something i could do.
anyway things are just moving so damn fast around me, wish a had like a slowmotion button. just to give me time to catch up. like i feel i'm getting left behind and theres something i'm really suppossed to be seeing...