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So my SAT subject tests are done. It's kind of what i've been basing my life around for the past few months. Not in the sense that i've been studying studying studying, no, i WISH it were that way, but more in the sense that i've been telling myself that this is the LAST bit of standardized testing i will ever take in high school. I pushed it back from november to december, but did not significantly prepare more. I did fairly poorly on all three tests. which sucks. but now, i'm supposed to feel so LIBERATED and ready to have fun. but i sort of eel stuck. Weirdly enough, SAT has governed my life these past few months. i've not only been attributing it as the reason i can't hang out, but i've been building up to it for so long, and then i just fuck it up? that's silly. i'm sort of pissed that i couldn't even go out with a bang. I'm such a bad test taker.
i kinda miss the good 'ol 8th grade days of having the highest grade in the class and doing the best on tests. because since then, i've always been the third or fourth tier of test scores. In virutally every class. The only reason this hasn't been that outwardly important to me, is because i quickly learned to focus on my strengths and give up my ambition in academics. I still find it amusing and slightly depressing that i need to study like 4 times as much timewise to do 30% worse than sam and mike on our math test. that kills me.
poopy sat's. there done now, and i'm supposed to be free to carpe diemize senior year. well, except for the math final next monday, and the TEss paper due tomorrow, and the college apps i haven't finished. "this is the fun part now. are we having fun yet?.."
idk, i really am not that depressed or dissappointed about this as it may seem, but i can't help but wanna talk about it. hooray for testing to be over!
~dithu
i kinda miss the good 'ol 8th grade days of having the highest grade in the class and doing the best on tests. because since then, i've always been the third or fourth tier of test scores. In virutally every class. The only reason this hasn't been that outwardly important to me, is because i quickly learned to focus on my strengths and give up my ambition in academics. I still find it amusing and slightly depressing that i need to study like 4 times as much timewise to do 30% worse than sam and mike on our math test. that kills me.
poopy sat's. there done now, and i'm supposed to be free to carpe diemize senior year. well, except for the math final next monday, and the TEss paper due tomorrow, and the college apps i haven't finished. "this is the fun part now. are we having fun yet?.."
idk, i really am not that depressed or dissappointed about this as it may seem, but i can't help but wanna talk about it. hooray for testing to be over!
~dithu