... I'm not sure what's happening...
I think I have people in my life who are kind of... DONE with me? I don't know if that's the word, but that's sure how it feels. I feel like people feel my lack of time these days is something I'm doing to them personally. Well, it's not. I'm not going to play the "if you want to talk to me you call me" game, because it's lame and I'm not 14. It just kinda seems like that's a theme for some. But, oh well... I don't have time to be like that.
Sure, I miss people tons. But this time in my life has been the busiest; at least that's how I feel. I have some pretty big changes happening in my life. Some know, and I'm sure some don't. And maybe some do know but just don't care. All of the previous possible options are probably true or an option. I know everyone else is busy and I know we all have lives. And I sure as hell don't give other people shit for being busy. And I also don't get shit directly I guess. Sort of, indirectly? I dunno... It's not like I have "spies", but I get the hint. I'm not stupid by any means.
I would like to think that people would be understanding of life and how it is sometimes. I respect everyone in my life and comprehend diverse lifestyles and commitments. I don't take any of it personal unless I know someone is not trying. I just feel that life is not worth the negative energy used to make a point about something that is not worth "solving" or "proving". I sure as hell don't do it. It's okay with me if people don't want me in their lives. And I need to understand it. But if I'm that important to someone, then I shouldn't be that disposable.
I hope everyone is doing good and those of you who I haven't talked to in a while, I hope you are all doing good.
Sure, I miss people tons. But this time in my life has been the busiest; at least that's how I feel. I have some pretty big changes happening in my life. Some know, and I'm sure some don't. And maybe some do know but just don't care. All of the previous possible options are probably true or an option. I know everyone else is busy and I know we all have lives. And I sure as hell don't give other people shit for being busy. And I also don't get shit directly I guess. Sort of, indirectly? I dunno... It's not like I have "spies", but I get the hint. I'm not stupid by any means.
I would like to think that people would be understanding of life and how it is sometimes. I respect everyone in my life and comprehend diverse lifestyles and commitments. I don't take any of it personal unless I know someone is not trying. I just feel that life is not worth the negative energy used to make a point about something that is not worth "solving" or "proving". I sure as hell don't do it. It's okay with me if people don't want me in their lives. And I need to understand it. But if I'm that important to someone, then I shouldn't be that disposable.
I hope everyone is doing good and those of you who I haven't talked to in a while, I hope you are all doing good.