just the thought scares me..
~hello~
whats happening to me?
I haven't cut now for about 2 years and 8 months, I haven't even been on live journal for a while now.....i dunno kno whats happening to me...i had a dream a couple of nights ago.... in my dream I was cutting and bleeding slowly and all i do is sit there watching this happening and i don't do a dam thing! ever since then I can't stop think about it......tonight I viewed a lot of SI images which just took me back to that mind set and feelings i felt each time i would pierce my body with a blade or knife or sharp object.....my heart is racing..my hands clammy..my body tense...i don't even want to admit to myself that deep down inside i am seriously thinking of entertaining that thought......even now just writing this, expressing my self, putting it out there is hard.....why so long, why now?
whats happening to me?....
thanx for listening. h24
whats happening to me?
I haven't cut now for about 2 years and 8 months, I haven't even been on live journal for a while now.....i dunno kno whats happening to me...i had a dream a couple of nights ago.... in my dream I was cutting and bleeding slowly and all i do is sit there watching this happening and i don't do a dam thing! ever since then I can't stop think about it......tonight I viewed a lot of SI images which just took me back to that mind set and feelings i felt each time i would pierce my body with a blade or knife or sharp object.....my heart is racing..my hands clammy..my body tense...i don't even want to admit to myself that deep down inside i am seriously thinking of entertaining that thought......even now just writing this, expressing my self, putting it out there is hard.....why so long, why now?
whats happening to me?....
thanx for listening. h24