Comments | 21_gashes: Haven't cut in a long time

hollowworlds in 21_gashes

Haven't cut in a long time

Oct 04, 2008 21:23

I haven't cut in a long time, about two years. Everything is going great. I am in a wonderful relationship, have a great job - after 17 years of hell. So why am I thinking about cutting again. Is it addictive? I've been thinking about drinking and smoking again too. I've been sober for three years and haven't smoked for almost two. I miss it, but ( Read more... )

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stillbourne October 5 2008, 18:36:16 UTC

I have had THE perfect Job and THE perfect marriage for 2 years (together) (6 for the marriage alone)
but I burnt last week mostly over financial and MIL issues.
This never completely goes away.

I bet youre on to something about it being the therapy-stopping.
youre removing a pillar of stregnth in yourlife, you are bound to feel less stable = getting the urges again

raze__the_rose October 5 2008, 19:31:22 UTC

It's funny, I'm in a similar situation right now. I finally found meds that help... but lately the little things in life just seem to linger a bit longer than I'd like and I find myself remembering how good THIS felt or how much nicer THAT would be right now... It is an addiction of sorts, and any time your newer, healthier ways of coping start to waver you'll find them in the back, waiting. It takes time but trust me, they do go away... over time...

libraterra October 6 2008, 00:16:20 UTC

I can totally relate. I'm having the urges again. Things here aren't great, but they're not where they were last time I cut. I just can't stop thinking about it. *hugs*

mytransference October 8 2008, 04:20:58 UTC

When I get like that it usually means that there is something missing in my life. It's been helpful for me to meditate on it, and consider what I really need from myself. From work, relationships, spare time, my internal state of mind. This year I've been going forward with my needs and not doubting it, as crazy as they may seem to others, and I'll be honest I have not felt suicidal or have had urges to cut in like over 9 months. My life is very different, but I am happier than ever.

It's a tough process, and it is ongoing, even for me, I know it isn't done. Though I hope when I have urges again I have the strength within me to simply address myself and not give into it.