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I love how one little thing can bring you back to any time in your life. Bring you back to any moment in life. Its amazing what three notes, or three words, a sniff of an odor, can do. Its amazing how the instant you see, smell, or hear them, you are transported into that moment. The time changes, the air becomes cold, and you can feel exactly what went on and what you felt. Then the emotions start flooding back to you, and you smile or cry and just live in that moment again for a few minutes, and for those five minutes that moment means the world to you. Then you start thinking about what has changed since then, and why. You think about who changed, and you think about how things will never be the same way again. It hits you like a brick wall that those people are never gonna be the same.
I’m time traveling. My Ipod has turned into my time portal, and the songs in it are a specific night in time. I can leave my apartment and go to a certain part of town in two chords. I can specify where I was when this song made an impact on my life. I turn on a certain song, and suddenly I’m in the flatbed of a truck, with my arms wrapped around a girl. Or I turn on this song, and it’s a cold winter night, and im driving to a coffee shop to sit on the couch with my friends. I smile because of I can feel the air, and remember the stars so vividly. Its amazing. I can still smell the pine leaves in the air. I swear that I am there, but then the song ends, and the memories stop. The night and stars spin back into the white walls of my apartment, the cold air turns into the air conditioning that is cooling my place, and the seat of my car turns into my couch, and I hit repeat just so I can be in that happy moment for 5 more minutes.
I wonder if I do this because I’m not happy with who I am now, or where I am in life. I don’t believe that I was happier or sadder back then, I just think I got caught up in the moment, and in the moment I was happy.
I’m time traveling. My Ipod has turned into my time portal, and the songs in it are a specific night in time. I can leave my apartment and go to a certain part of town in two chords. I can specify where I was when this song made an impact on my life. I turn on a certain song, and suddenly I’m in the flatbed of a truck, with my arms wrapped around a girl. Or I turn on this song, and it’s a cold winter night, and im driving to a coffee shop to sit on the couch with my friends. I smile because of I can feel the air, and remember the stars so vividly. Its amazing. I can still smell the pine leaves in the air. I swear that I am there, but then the song ends, and the memories stop. The night and stars spin back into the white walls of my apartment, the cold air turns into the air conditioning that is cooling my place, and the seat of my car turns into my couch, and I hit repeat just so I can be in that happy moment for 5 more minutes.
I wonder if I do this because I’m not happy with who I am now, or where I am in life. I don’t believe that I was happier or sadder back then, I just think I got caught up in the moment, and in the moment I was happy.