.youre a lover in my bed. and a gun to my head. we must never be apart.
Sometimes I don't know what to say.
If I should be honest and suffer through the effects of my actions.
Or lie yet again-
and eventually rip my own tongue out
so that I will have an excuse
to finally stop talking....................
I'm so unbelievebly tired of trying to make everyone happy all the fucking time.
[especially considering 99% of those people could honestly give a flying FUCK about my happiness]
I don't want to kiss your ass & make you feel better about yourself.
It's about time that everyone grew the hell up
&& stopped acting like they were in high school all the time.
I'm sick of all the pointless drama that goes on
day in and day out.
It's pathetic
& time consuming.
I'm at the point in life where I just need to start settling down
&& figuring out what the hell I want.
Fuck everyone else.
Your sure as hell NOT gunna live my life for me.
So who the fuck are you to make my decisions?
I need to get off my lazy ass & start doing the shit I say Im gunna do.
I need to stop complaining & figure out a way to get what I want.
And I'm sure as hell not gunna be able to do that
if I'm constantly getting drunk or fucked up off something.
Hence the reason, I quit partying.
Its all fine and dandy for everyone else to do.
Im not saying theres anything wrong with it.
Its just wrong for me.
If I start hitting the bottle again,
Im gunna do nothing but spiral slowly out of control.
And I just dont ever wanna be back down in the hole
I finally managed to crawl out of.
WHY IS THAT SUCH A BAD THING?
ehhh. Im like babbling on about nothing.
but fuck it.
I dont even care.
Im just tired of everyone && everything.
At this point, if you dont support me, or you dont like my current state of mind,
get the fuck out of my life.
Cuz I really just dont need you around.
and thats pretty much how i feel about that.
haha.
If I should be honest and suffer through the effects of my actions.
Or lie yet again-
and eventually rip my own tongue out
so that I will have an excuse
to finally stop talking....................
I'm so unbelievebly tired of trying to make everyone happy all the fucking time.
[especially considering 99% of those people could honestly give a flying FUCK about my happiness]
I don't want to kiss your ass & make you feel better about yourself.
It's about time that everyone grew the hell up
&& stopped acting like they were in high school all the time.
I'm sick of all the pointless drama that goes on
day in and day out.
It's pathetic
& time consuming.
I'm at the point in life where I just need to start settling down
&& figuring out what the hell I want.
Fuck everyone else.
Your sure as hell NOT gunna live my life for me.
So who the fuck are you to make my decisions?
I need to get off my lazy ass & start doing the shit I say Im gunna do.
I need to stop complaining & figure out a way to get what I want.
And I'm sure as hell not gunna be able to do that
if I'm constantly getting drunk or fucked up off something.
Hence the reason, I quit partying.
Its all fine and dandy for everyone else to do.
Im not saying theres anything wrong with it.
Its just wrong for me.
If I start hitting the bottle again,
Im gunna do nothing but spiral slowly out of control.
And I just dont ever wanna be back down in the hole
I finally managed to crawl out of.
WHY IS THAT SUCH A BAD THING?
ehhh. Im like babbling on about nothing.
but fuck it.
I dont even care.
Im just tired of everyone && everything.
At this point, if you dont support me, or you dont like my current state of mind,
get the fuck out of my life.
Cuz I really just dont need you around.
and thats pretty much how i feel about that.
haha.