Single Awareness Day
it was a great day. really it was. we got to hang out. we got to spend time together, me and my friends. I couldent ask for more. but nonetheless I come to the end of the day, and face the music. before I go on, I apologise. I really have no right to complain. and I know it's not rational or fair. but it's how I feel anyway... I find myself at the end of the day, always on this day, remembering I'm still single. it's been at least 4 now. and for those of you who know me I'm such a sappy romantic wannabe. it gets me down because I spend all day trying to put all this valentines day stuff out of my head to have a good time, and wanting nothing more than to go all out and pull some extravagent, gift-giving, pink heart and flower filled event. but I cannot. and at the end of the day, when I'm alone I have to face the fact that once again, I'm single, and once again I couldent. that's the funny thing, for all I complain about it, one day it will be my favorite. It will be an excuse to go all out for someone. to make them feel special. to make them feel loved. and nothing makes me happier than dooing that for someone else. I did what I could this year and I know I'm being stupid about this. I should be happy for what I could do and for the time I did have with many wonderful, dear, beloved, friends. But some stupid part of me is still down. and the fact that I know I shouldent be this way makes it even worse. so I suppose I feel like crap for feeling like crap :-(
oh well. tomorrow is another day. I have alot to do between this night's rest and my next one. but it will still be a new day, and I'll be past this. I hope.
God bless!
J
oh well. tomorrow is another day. I have alot to do between this night's rest and my next one. but it will still be a new day, and I'll be past this. I hope.
God bless!
J