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[20nutmeg07]

well tim leaves saturday at like 4 in the morning or something like that and i dont know what to think or feel or if what im thinking and feeling is right. I mean obviously im sad ataht he is going away for so long but on the other had I'm really excited for him. He is going to another part of the country so of course i'm excited for him. I'm going to worry about him the entire time he's gone and i know he is going to worry about me but i dont want him to because i want him to have fun and just be a teen without worrying about me. I have fears that i have already expressed to him and even though he has reassured me about them i still cant help but have them in the back of my mind until he gets home again. I'm going to put a map up in my room and map his trip so i can tell where he is for time zone purposes of course (says in most serious stern voice)lol not! Well it is partly for time zone purposes and partly so i can know where he is. On a brighter note though I got to sleep over his house last night for one last time before he leaves. We hung out all day and i helped him pack his last few things which was sad and a little depressing but it made me feel a little better at the same time which i cknow dosent make sense but oh well it does to me. What was even more depressing though was that they already have his and zack's trips mapped out on a map that is hanging on the wall and every time i passed by it i wkould stop and look at it and every time i did it became more of a reality that he was going to be on the other side of the country for a montha nd a half but oh well not much i can do about it but be supportive of him while he is over there. But we got to go out for ice cream tonight after VBS which was cool except for all the bugs but it was worth putting up with them. I'll update on VBS tomorrow after i get back and it is all over. for now though i think i'm done.
ttyl
Megan