Excuse me, can you empty your pockets? I believe you have stolen my heart.
Well, I don't know where or how this entry is going to unfold, i just know that i feel like expressing myself right now, at 10:08 PM.
First, things first, Yesterday I spent the day with my favorite person ever, Daeshawn, him, tisha, and dave came over and we had a cookout and god do i love that boy.
WellAfter i showered, I was putting my makeup on, and i get a phone call from my mom, and she goes, "So did Chelsey tell you, And I said tell me what?, She goes, That Grandma K died."
http://www.altoonamirror.com/Obituaries/articles.asp?articleID=13285
Not only did she die, she died on the fourth of July and NOONE, even tried to get ahold of my mom, me, tisha, gary, chelsey, or even my dad to tell us. We missed her funeral and everything. Tell me that isn't shitty? I don't care how broken my family is, that shit, shouldn't happen.
Anyways, I've been sick, real sick, i thought it was just like... woman problems, but i've been sick for almost 3 weeks, and my woman issues have done passed, and i think there is something really wrong with me. I havn't felt well, in over 2/3 weeks, and that's obviously not normal.
Along with, feeling sick, i've been upsetting myself for no reason at all, Like I've got some good things going on in my life right now, and i still seem to find times where i'm so down, and so mean to everyone. Like yeah, i have agression, and mood problems, but there is no reason for me to be upset right now, sucks.
So, I always wonder why i write in this thing, why i write about stuff that i know, nobody cares about, but i do have past entries that mean a lot to me, and mark very hard times that i have had in my past. I've had a blurty journal, and older Livejournal, and this one, and i do plan on printing out a bunch of entries sometime in the future, only because i don't want to forget stuff,i want to know how i felt when i had certain things happen, and just because i'm way to lazy to have a diary or whatever you want to call it. I'd rather type, than write.
My mom finally got one of her old jobs back, she hasn't worked in over 2 years, I really hope she keeps up with it. She's about to get her license back, hopefully. I miss her like crazy, I miss her being my mom. Being there, living with her, talking with her, like all that. I don't have that now, and i havn't in a good while.
My dad... is a whole different story, I don't even want to start ranting about that.
I'm gaining/ have gained weight, I hate it, it brings the image i have of myself, to it's lowest it has been. But i depend on eating, i love food, and i eat a bunch of unhealthy food, I'd change it if i was the one who grocery shopped, or even if i drove i'd take the time to go and eat better food.
I was watching that dumb sweet 16 movie on MTV today, and one of the girls, was acting as a high class, proper girl, and she used the word..."WORSER" It really bugged me.
Welp, other than that, most things are going great, despite the setbacks i always have. I'm happy, and it's good<3
First, things first, Yesterday I spent the day with my favorite person ever, Daeshawn, him, tisha, and dave came over and we had a cookout and god do i love that boy.
WellAfter i showered, I was putting my makeup on, and i get a phone call from my mom, and she goes, "So did Chelsey tell you, And I said tell me what?, She goes, That Grandma K died."
http://www.altoonamirror.com/Obituaries/articles.asp?articleID=13285
Not only did she die, she died on the fourth of July and NOONE, even tried to get ahold of my mom, me, tisha, gary, chelsey, or even my dad to tell us. We missed her funeral and everything. Tell me that isn't shitty? I don't care how broken my family is, that shit, shouldn't happen.
Anyways, I've been sick, real sick, i thought it was just like... woman problems, but i've been sick for almost 3 weeks, and my woman issues have done passed, and i think there is something really wrong with me. I havn't felt well, in over 2/3 weeks, and that's obviously not normal.
Along with, feeling sick, i've been upsetting myself for no reason at all, Like I've got some good things going on in my life right now, and i still seem to find times where i'm so down, and so mean to everyone. Like yeah, i have agression, and mood problems, but there is no reason for me to be upset right now, sucks.
So, I always wonder why i write in this thing, why i write about stuff that i know, nobody cares about, but i do have past entries that mean a lot to me, and mark very hard times that i have had in my past. I've had a blurty journal, and older Livejournal, and this one, and i do plan on printing out a bunch of entries sometime in the future, only because i don't want to forget stuff,i want to know how i felt when i had certain things happen, and just because i'm way to lazy to have a diary or whatever you want to call it. I'd rather type, than write.
My mom finally got one of her old jobs back, she hasn't worked in over 2 years, I really hope she keeps up with it. She's about to get her license back, hopefully. I miss her like crazy, I miss her being my mom. Being there, living with her, talking with her, like all that. I don't have that now, and i havn't in a good while.
My dad... is a whole different story, I don't even want to start ranting about that.
I'm gaining/ have gained weight, I hate it, it brings the image i have of myself, to it's lowest it has been. But i depend on eating, i love food, and i eat a bunch of unhealthy food, I'd change it if i was the one who grocery shopped, or even if i drove i'd take the time to go and eat better food.
I was watching that dumb sweet 16 movie on MTV today, and one of the girls, was acting as a high class, proper girl, and she used the word..."WORSER" It really bugged me.
Welp, other than that, most things are going great, despite the setbacks i always have. I'm happy, and it's good<3