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well i found out that Garret it having his MRI today and he might end up having surgery which really scares me. I really care about him and i just want him to be ok. aI mean even though he is my ex-boyfriend there is something about him that still gets me. I mean, if something were to happen to him, which i hope nothing does, I would die. I just don't know what i would do without him. he's always been there for me, and i know i can trust on him fr anything. His brother is also going to have to have surgery on his knee, but he'll be fine. he surgery will be nothing like the one Garret will be having to have... he told me that he would call me and that s he had to have surgery that he wanted me to come and see him... and i promised i would... i really hope he doesn't have to have this stupid surgery though....*worries* But i think his mom is wanting them to move to pell city, and i hope they do. but we will see... i guess me worrying isn't going to help any, but i can't stop... i care to much.
he told me that: physical pain goes away with time, but mental pain never does. He also told me that he was really sorry for ever hurting me, and that he still thought about me, and loved me... he also said that even though he can't be with me physically, he wanted me to remember that he was always with me mentally. i'm not reall sure what to think about him having all this medical crap done, but he's had a bad back for nearly 8 years now, and if this wil help take him out of pain, then i guess i'm all for it... but either way... i don't want to see him have to go through all this....
i'll update again once i get more information about his condition...*sighs, and worries*