Love...

Nov 08, 2005 17:13

Why is letting go of the ones we once loved so hard, and yet letting new ones we find so easy? Being afraid of getting hurt comes so naturally. So when we find peace with ourselves, someone new comes trotting along only to hurt us again. Or at least that's how it seems. As a girl, I not only want someone to call mine, but I also don't want to get hurt. Opening up I find hard and when I do, it always seems like it just comes back slap me in the face. Not knowing how to deal with this is another issue continually appearing. We all want someone to love, someone to hug, and most importantly someone who loves us because of who we are, not what we look like. Someone who when you are really low, and you walk up to them in sweat pants, a ponytail, and mascara running down your face the first thing they say to you is that you look beautiful, and they take you in their arms. Someone who diesn't think we are hot, but beautiful. Now in an ideal world we would all have guys like this, but this world is far from ideal. This is the real world. One with heartbreaks, hardships, and many obstacles in the road. Sometimes we are lucky enough to have someone, whether it be a boyfreind/girlfreind, best freind, or even a sibling who we can fall back on, and know that they are to catch us. But more often than not many feel alone, like no one is there for them. I cna say rhis because I know how it feels. When I do, finally open up, most of the time can't help what happens. I'm the kind of person who wears their heart on their sleeve, and I tend to get huhrt easily. When I left down my guard, it is hard for me to put it back up. Then when I do... It's too late. Personally, i'm tired of getting hurt, and tired of seeing the ones' closest to me get hurt. So far this year I've seen hearts broken, tears shed, and provided a shoulder to cry on, and it is NOT a good feeling to watch someone you care so much about fall to pieces. You just have to sit there and try your best to do all you can to help them. Now... some people may agree with me, but I know that there are probably some who won't agree with me, but comment as you wish. EVERYONE is entilted to their own opinion, and I'm not gonna get upset over anything that is said. Post what you wish....

Sending love to all my girls...

And... sending love to all those who may need a little extra!... <3

I wish everyone could be happy....

((in other news))
Hopefully Schorette gets to come spend the night this weekend.... that would rock... us pineapples would have so much fun.. :)

Heather seems to be feeling alot better, but I'm hoping that things start looking up for Crystal, and Corey. She alwasy seems to be upset over crap that he is doing. ...... *sighs*

I talked to someone I haven't talked to in for ever. BRANDON!! He is like the most awesome person ever. I miss hanging out with him SOO much. I proabably miss him the most out of EVERYONE at Leeds. Now, that's not to say that I don't miss anyone else, but me and him were so close. Closer than me and Gretchen were,(and she was my bestfreind) or me and well...anyone. Gah... i can remember so much that we did together...for instance we would talk to each other til like 3 in the morning on school nights about EVERYTHING. I told him everything, and i mean everything. He was always there for me even when i yelled at him for no reason what so ever.... SHAAAAAAA! I miss having him around to talk to..... But...yeah.. we talked for a long time today.

Well.... i guess that's all for now... MUCH LOVE TO ALL!!
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