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I feel like such a waste of space today. It's my day off what have i done? Andy and I were fighting this morning but i do feel slightly better now. I'm only depressed about the Earth. so why am i not outside? also i am really starting to miss people. just visiting random myspace pages, looking through pictures...i don't know why i felt like i needed to separate myself from everyone so much. The only people i let near me were andy and jackie. not even carla. and i grew farther apart from liz. i know this happens anyway as we get older. but the fact that it was my own fault. im going back to school in the fall which i think should help. where is my motivation?? most of the reason i stopped seeing people is because everyone wants to partypartyparty.....i went a little too crazy with that, but i should still be able to get excited and want to do stuff sometimes. its as if i have no energy. i know i need to exercise. that will help. if you want change how do you make it happen!!! if anyone is interested in hanging out, becoming pen-pals, emailing...i am interested. i know i hate meeting people..but i dont want to lose everyone that i do know. and i have to re-meet them anyway.