Opportunity
Considering my current state of employment...or lack there of, I've been struggling dealing with my past opportunities. I think back to the times I've blown it because of my stupidity or arrogance, and the times where I was impatient and tossed it away, or the times where I wanted to take advantage of it with so much eagerness, I ended up crushing it in my grip. Or the times society simply rejected me. Or the times God just simply said "no"...move on.
What I hate is that I feel like despite everything that was in my hands, that God has kept bringing me to the "no"...move on points in my life. Where do I move? I've felt imprisoned by the lack of opportunity. I can't get out of this place. Yeah, it's for God's purposes and God's purposes are always good. But if it's true that all God wants is for me to lean on him why am I still even here?...why are we still here?
I guess with this world dying away, does the opportunity it offers die away as well? It's pathetic for Americans to not have goals or dreams...to simply live a day at a time...to simply be the person God created you to be. But striving is what America was founded on...the "American Dream".
We strive for the wrong things. And yes, I'll include Christians in that 'we'. We really don't strive to love. We really don't strive for God. And in essence, we can't but we should according to His word. So, in essence, we run the race blinded and with broken legs. I sort of feel like that, so, in making due with what I have, I crawl along the pavement feeling it out.
We have a sense...an urge...an impulse...an instinct to strive towards something...that is, unless they've simply quit on life. Sometimes, we just wait for someone to carry us, but will He? Or does he want us to wait, and heal, and then get up and walk? I guess we'll know when we get there.
What I hate is that I feel like despite everything that was in my hands, that God has kept bringing me to the "no"...move on points in my life. Where do I move? I've felt imprisoned by the lack of opportunity. I can't get out of this place. Yeah, it's for God's purposes and God's purposes are always good. But if it's true that all God wants is for me to lean on him why am I still even here?...why are we still here?
I guess with this world dying away, does the opportunity it offers die away as well? It's pathetic for Americans to not have goals or dreams...to simply live a day at a time...to simply be the person God created you to be. But striving is what America was founded on...the "American Dream".
We strive for the wrong things. And yes, I'll include Christians in that 'we'. We really don't strive to love. We really don't strive for God. And in essence, we can't but we should according to His word. So, in essence, we run the race blinded and with broken legs. I sort of feel like that, so, in making due with what I have, I crawl along the pavement feeling it out.
We have a sense...an urge...an impulse...an instinct to strive towards something...that is, unless they've simply quit on life. Sometimes, we just wait for someone to carry us, but will He? Or does he want us to wait, and heal, and then get up and walk? I guess we'll know when we get there.