yeahhh life is pretttttty shitttyyy when it wants to be..

[1walkinmyshoes]

Nothing has gotten better.. I miss you soo much, i miss us.. i miss everything and anything that we had.. and not having you just make the days go by soo much slower. Part of me wishes that that convorsation a few days ago never happened and we were still fine, with a couple uncertainties, but the other part of me wishes i had never met you so i would not have to go through this right now. God help me when you are ready and you and i can be together again, because if something like this happens again and i have to loose you again i dont know what i will do.

I care about you as much as you say you care about me, but seeing you every weekend and now i am not going to be by your side just plain out fucking sucks!.. I hate your mother and i wish that things hadnt turned out this way..i told you i would wait as long as i can, but how long will that be Josh? I know for a fact that you are missing me as much as i am you and i also know that you have not been yourself in school because of the situation..i am sorry for what has happened and i hope that you and i will get over this as soon as possible.. <3.

Until then i will still hold you close to me, and i will not give up what we have. No matter what your mother thinks..I just want you to know that i do not care what anyone say about us, your parents or my friends or anything the only thing i care about in this is you, and only you..

~Nat.