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My parents are overwhelmingly protective and interfering and just won't let me be. I recently got a job and a good one at that so the option of not listening to them and doing what I want is available but I just can't do that to them. For one, they fight so much as it is and I can't bear them fighting even more. I sometimes even pretend to be happy just to change the mood but its tiring and I don't think I can do it any longer. I feel like my life is just a long wait for some way in which it can be mine. I want to do the things I have wanted to do and they are sane, normal ones. I want to travel, do volunteer work - maybe even join the peace corps, learn a foreign language, etc. I saw my childhood diary and nearly cried because I hadn't done anything yet.