i'm really fucked up
mentally, not physically. not right now.
DONT READ THIS, ITS THE MOST EMO THING EVER WRITTEN BY A HUMAN BEING. IM SERIOUS... DONT READ IT.
so lately i havent hung out with any of my friends. i havent talked to any of them in about 2 weeks. i just think about back in the day when i knew everthing that was going on in my friends lives. i talked to them every day. we hung out on a regular basis. and now, even though i was home for almost an entire week, i hung out with no one but matt, my mom, and my dad. i am the biggest loser in the world. and i dont even call anybody. i want to, but it makes me nervous to think about calling somebody. it makes feel like im pushing them to hang out with me. it sounds so gay.i sound like one of those people on those paxil commercials who's afraid to leave their house because they might see a bird or something. i have no problem with birds. i always thought those people were weird but it really makes a person feel alone. i have fucking social anxiety all of a sudden. i dont know where it came from.
seriously, i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me.
and im not looking for people to leave me comments telling me that they want to hang out with me. i know i have friends, im not looking for pity. im just having problems right now because im stupid and i feel like an emo kid and it makes me hate myself.
DONT READ THIS, ITS THE MOST EMO THING EVER WRITTEN BY A HUMAN BEING. IM SERIOUS... DONT READ IT.
so lately i havent hung out with any of my friends. i havent talked to any of them in about 2 weeks. i just think about back in the day when i knew everthing that was going on in my friends lives. i talked to them every day. we hung out on a regular basis. and now, even though i was home for almost an entire week, i hung out with no one but matt, my mom, and my dad. i am the biggest loser in the world. and i dont even call anybody. i want to, but it makes me nervous to think about calling somebody. it makes feel like im pushing them to hang out with me. it sounds so gay.i sound like one of those people on those paxil commercials who's afraid to leave their house because they might see a bird or something. i have no problem with birds. i always thought those people were weird but it really makes a person feel alone. i have fucking social anxiety all of a sudden. i dont know where it came from.
seriously, i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me.
and im not looking for people to leave me comments telling me that they want to hang out with me. i know i have friends, im not looking for pity. im just having problems right now because im stupid and i feel like an emo kid and it makes me hate myself.