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the truth hurts, it's a tough pill to swallow, theres so many ways to say it..but basically this sucks.
i had a weekend back to reality, away from this fairy tale world i've made for my self over the past few months. too bad now i have to come back and undo everything that i've been thinking and feeling but still hold on to what truth is really there. damn what a stupid feeling to know that you've been tricked by your self and there's no one else to blame.
but fortunately life does move on and the hardest lessons to learn are the most valuable so i guess i'm better off now, its just a shitty way to end such an awesome year. but its not a total loss, thanks to the possible new love on the horizon which would be perfect right now if i can get my shit together and make it work.
but listen up
i can't make my first entry in this long be all bad so here's something to think about-
i went deep into the woods of tennessee this weekend w/ my family and my dad's best friend's family and we stayed at this nice cabin way far out from everything civilized. it would be an awesome road trip/weekend party for 6-8 people and we could rent the cabin for like $20 a person. so maybe in the fall or something when its not really hot we could do that. there's no cable or cell phone reception and these people have never even heard of asphalt-all the roads are gravel and way fun if you have like...oh maybe a jeep or a chevy truck or something like that! i dunno how parents would like it but give me some feedback i think it would be so cool.
i had a weekend back to reality, away from this fairy tale world i've made for my self over the past few months. too bad now i have to come back and undo everything that i've been thinking and feeling but still hold on to what truth is really there. damn what a stupid feeling to know that you've been tricked by your self and there's no one else to blame.
but fortunately life does move on and the hardest lessons to learn are the most valuable so i guess i'm better off now, its just a shitty way to end such an awesome year. but its not a total loss, thanks to the possible new love on the horizon which would be perfect right now if i can get my shit together and make it work.
but listen up
i can't make my first entry in this long be all bad so here's something to think about-
i went deep into the woods of tennessee this weekend w/ my family and my dad's best friend's family and we stayed at this nice cabin way far out from everything civilized. it would be an awesome road trip/weekend party for 6-8 people and we could rent the cabin for like $20 a person. so maybe in the fall or something when its not really hot we could do that. there's no cable or cell phone reception and these people have never even heard of asphalt-all the roads are gravel and way fun if you have like...oh maybe a jeep or a chevy truck or something like that! i dunno how parents would like it but give me some feedback i think it would be so cool.