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so today i was sitting in church with my family, at the service that i did not want to go to but got up for any way, and was tuned out as i usually am in the service. but something the pastor said caught my attention. the sermon was about God's love for us, how it is so unconditional, that no matter what we do we always have a place in him. how even though every single day we do things that hurt him so badly without even taking a second to think about it. or even care for that matter. and he still sacrificed the most amazing thing to him, his only son, who was perfect in every way. i can't even imagine sacrificing a friend or a brother for someone that cares so little about me and so much about themselves. i don't usually get into religious stuff but in church i realized that i am so selfish. think about it, life is so trivial. for around 80 years or whatever we mess around, do good stuff, do bad stuff, learn a lot, but when it comes down to it, this life is nothing. the only important thing that we do here is decide if we are going to be with God or not, and that decides the rest of our eternity. lately i have been unhappy about a lot of stuff and have been thinking a lot about friendships and my future and my family and all that mess and i needed this to get me back on track and to remember that God is the most important part of my life and i haven't even been thinking about him at all. Just to think about the love he has, i can't understand it, but that is what matters when it feels like people don't care. when i totally screw up and show him that i just don't give a shit, he is right there behind me, ready to forgive me right away. then the pastor got to talking about showing God's love, stepping up when someone needs help, and just being understanding, forgiving, and patient. i hope i have shown you all the kind of love you deserve because i love everyone so much. i'm closer to some than others-kenny and christina, i couldn't live without you guys-the late night talks on the phone, the discussions in starbucks, just chillin where ever, long drives, whatever, it's all good and i have seen God's love demonstrated through you guys and to think that His love is so much more, so much bigger is amazing. thank you. and all the rest of you are amazing friends. i had a list going but decided against it because it would suck if i left someone out, but you know if you are my friend. alright i gotta go drive nick and austin to the forum