...and i guess this is growing up...
my life is the stuff movies are made of... but that's not a good thing.... movies usually end up with everyone happy at the end... and Im being vague... but it wouldn't be me if I wasn't... ;)
Im coming to terms that Im not 22 anymore, not 23 anymore, not 24 anymore either...
things/people are meaning more to me than they ever did before - the angel on my shoulder is saying the time is here to grow up...
the devil on the other hand, if tugging at my manhood - and winning... Ive never been one to make good decisions, and now would be a good time to start... but "pride" is a bitch and Im fucking up... I think
New song - barstool ~ string cheese incident
Theres so much I haven't experienced, and that scares me... I know I can't attain every goal I set my sights on, but when is what I have enough???
it's just looking around at everyone else - musikfest is a bitch, lots of happy couples holdin hands and shit like that - I've been talking with friends that I haven't talked to in awhile... people Ive felt Ive neglected not by choice, but in an effort to make things "peaceful" Ive done it... and we're all going down different paths, this is about as bad as I felt when I graduated from college - the best damn years of my life... I figured... "this is as good as it gets" and it was good... never again will life be as fun filled/ never again can i be irresponsible/ never again will life be so easy... and it was as good as it got... but eventually other opportunities came up, and that was pretty good too... and opportunities came and came and came and I passed them by thinking they would circle back some day.... and you know what.... LIFE DOESN"T REVOLVE AROUND ME... that's my biggest problem... Im concerned with "Dennis" Yes, I will argue about the importance of self respect, but when I find myself interrupting others when they are talking about something important to talk about myself.... that's just too much...
so this.... this is all about me too.... it's my last hurrah if you will... if that makes sense... sooner or later I need to realize what it is that I want... and for now - this will have to do.
New song - don't say ~ String Cheese Incident
If there is one thing I can count on, it's the SCI - no matter what mood Im in, I will always have the SCI to light my path.... I just hope the choices I made are the right ones.....................................
In closing - in case anything unexpectedly should happen - like death - (just didn't feel like being vague)
I would like the song Brokedown Palace played at my funeral - I would love for it to be a party, and if they are available... Id love for the SCI to play at my wake... or just a good SCI cover band.... ;)
Song list - ;) not in any particular order....
Little Hands
Don't Say
Sirens
Barstool
THIS MUST BE THE PLACE
JOYFUL SOUND
Rollover
100 Year Flood
Round The Wheel
and
Just Passing Through
Wow that's actually really morbid, and I almost took it out... but one never knows when their number is up.... i hope I made the right decisions where it counted -
Time to turn my life around and stop fucking up -
Im coming to terms that Im not 22 anymore, not 23 anymore, not 24 anymore either...
things/people are meaning more to me than they ever did before - the angel on my shoulder is saying the time is here to grow up...
the devil on the other hand, if tugging at my manhood - and winning... Ive never been one to make good decisions, and now would be a good time to start... but "pride" is a bitch and Im fucking up... I think
New song - barstool ~ string cheese incident
Theres so much I haven't experienced, and that scares me... I know I can't attain every goal I set my sights on, but when is what I have enough???
it's just looking around at everyone else - musikfest is a bitch, lots of happy couples holdin hands and shit like that - I've been talking with friends that I haven't talked to in awhile... people Ive felt Ive neglected not by choice, but in an effort to make things "peaceful" Ive done it... and we're all going down different paths, this is about as bad as I felt when I graduated from college - the best damn years of my life... I figured... "this is as good as it gets" and it was good... never again will life be as fun filled/ never again can i be irresponsible/ never again will life be so easy... and it was as good as it got... but eventually other opportunities came up, and that was pretty good too... and opportunities came and came and came and I passed them by thinking they would circle back some day.... and you know what.... LIFE DOESN"T REVOLVE AROUND ME... that's my biggest problem... Im concerned with "Dennis" Yes, I will argue about the importance of self respect, but when I find myself interrupting others when they are talking about something important to talk about myself.... that's just too much...
so this.... this is all about me too.... it's my last hurrah if you will... if that makes sense... sooner or later I need to realize what it is that I want... and for now - this will have to do.
New song - don't say ~ String Cheese Incident
If there is one thing I can count on, it's the SCI - no matter what mood Im in, I will always have the SCI to light my path.... I just hope the choices I made are the right ones.....................................
In closing - in case anything unexpectedly should happen - like death - (just didn't feel like being vague)
I would like the song Brokedown Palace played at my funeral - I would love for it to be a party, and if they are available... Id love for the SCI to play at my wake... or just a good SCI cover band.... ;)
Song list - ;) not in any particular order....
Little Hands
Don't Say
Sirens
Barstool
THIS MUST BE THE PLACE
JOYFUL SOUND
Rollover
100 Year Flood
Round The Wheel
and
Just Passing Through
Wow that's actually really morbid, and I almost took it out... but one never knows when their number is up.... i hope I made the right decisions where it counted -
Time to turn my life around and stop fucking up -