well obviously an update is needed...
well obviously an update is needed, bc i've updated so many days in a row. i don't really know why. my life is boring. i am boring. actually, not all the time. but sometimes. then again, who isn't?
anyway, i've learned that i am indeed the master procrastinator. Nothing like leaving your largest ap bio lab of the year for the night before. you know it. i actually am in the process of doing it, however, but decided-in the middle of writing my background for my pGLO transformation lab-"why, i need to write in my live journal. why? because i have such an intriguing life, and cannot disappoint my, if any, readers." ooooorrrr because i just am not in the mood for school.
actually. that's a lie. i like my school. i like the people in it. i'm not in the mood for 5 days of classes, 4 nights of hmwk, work, and dreading saturday. because we all know i am. no matter how much i deny it and claim that i really shouldn't care. i do anyway. no matter how much i tell myself he really shouldn't care. I do anyway. no matter how much i tell myself...yep. i'm done. just making sure. keeping it simple. that's all there is to it. i wish i didn't care, but i do. and right now, i love that i do, bc i love liking this. but i know deep down i wish i didn't care, bc caring is too hard, too uncertain, too worrisome. but i care anyway, bc caring is also good for you, makes you happy, keeps you going.
gato is winner for quote of the day. simple, too the point, and entirely too true. the past is the past, the future is the future, live for right now. or something along those lines. if i was living for right now...i can tell you that i definately would not be doing this bio lab, but probably doing something involving me caring...bc it makes me happy, it's good for me, keeps me going.
so what are my outs for this situation: for four months there's been a dry spell...i come into the picture...and then there's four more months of drought. and then home. and i can care again? my guess is like -3295. anyone else? i wish i didn't care. (not gonna lie, i just lied, bc i'm glad i care. means i'm alive. or something. and bc i get that clenchy heart thing.) but i do care. the end. actually. XoX. paz. the end.
if only love were flammable, i'd set this world afire.
anyway, i've learned that i am indeed the master procrastinator. Nothing like leaving your largest ap bio lab of the year for the night before. you know it. i actually am in the process of doing it, however, but decided-in the middle of writing my background for my pGLO transformation lab-"why, i need to write in my live journal. why? because i have such an intriguing life, and cannot disappoint my, if any, readers." ooooorrrr because i just am not in the mood for school.
actually. that's a lie. i like my school. i like the people in it. i'm not in the mood for 5 days of classes, 4 nights of hmwk, work, and dreading saturday. because we all know i am. no matter how much i deny it and claim that i really shouldn't care. i do anyway. no matter how much i tell myself he really shouldn't care. I do anyway. no matter how much i tell myself...yep. i'm done. just making sure. keeping it simple. that's all there is to it. i wish i didn't care, but i do. and right now, i love that i do, bc i love liking this. but i know deep down i wish i didn't care, bc caring is too hard, too uncertain, too worrisome. but i care anyway, bc caring is also good for you, makes you happy, keeps you going.
gato is winner for quote of the day. simple, too the point, and entirely too true. the past is the past, the future is the future, live for right now. or something along those lines. if i was living for right now...i can tell you that i definately would not be doing this bio lab, but probably doing something involving me caring...bc it makes me happy, it's good for me, keeps me going.
so what are my outs for this situation: for four months there's been a dry spell...i come into the picture...and then there's four more months of drought. and then home. and i can care again? my guess is like -3295. anyone else? i wish i didn't care. (not gonna lie, i just lied, bc i'm glad i care. means i'm alive. or something. and bc i get that clenchy heart thing.) but i do care. the end. actually. XoX. paz. the end.
if only love were flammable, i'd set this world afire.