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Throughout the week he feels everybody's concern growing.
His humiliation festers in his mind because he doesn't have to be worried about.
He just doesn't want to talk much, that's all, he promises.
There aren't problems, he doesn't have problems, he's not the kind of person who has problems.
He tries so hard not to slip up, because he doesn't want anybody--especially not the ones he's trying so hard to teach--to know how stupid he really is, how weak.
But sometimes he does slip, when somebody touches him, sometimes he flinches, pulls away.
The oppressive chokehold of fear hasn't left him.
Sometimes he thinks it never will.
Even Erik is hard to be around. It's hard to let him touch him even though he likes Erik in a way that is different from the way he likes the others.
He attraction burns in him and he knows Erik is attracted too, senses it, but Erik is also forceful and angry and sometimes Charles is even scared of him, and then he's guilty because it's silly.
Charles is confusing himself, lately, because he wants Erik to touch him but also doesn't and so he just tries to push himself away, far away into outer space.
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Raven tells him he's acting strange and she's worried and everybody's worried and is there something wrong?
And he can barely get words out lately but to her he has always lies seamlessly so he manages to smile his best reassuring smile and say that really, he's fine and there's no need to worry.
She reluctantly half believes him and he just rubs the bruises on his wrists, feels the ghosts of hands on his skin under his cardigan, holding him down.
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He plays chess with Erik, and Erik is flippant and seemingly unconcerned, just his friend, and for a moment Charles' traitorous mind imagines that they are lovers.
Halfway through the game he hears a thought, and sometimes that happens and it's normal, but he's been trying so hard to block all of it out all week, just lock himself in his own head, it's a surprise.
What the hell is that? Erik thinks, and before Charles can move he grabs his wrist.
Charles feels cold panic settle over his body and he struggles to get away.
Get off of me, he thinks it because his mouth is too busy breathing.
"Calm down," and Erik thinks it and says it at the same time and his grip loosens and so does the tightness in Charles' chest.
Charles knows what Erik is going to do before he does it and just slumps in his seat and lets him.
Erik pulls up Charles' sleeve and Charles marvels at how ugly the bruises on his wrists still look.
Erik's voice is taut with anger. "Who did this to you?" he growls.
Charles pulls his hand away gently, pulls down his sleeve and plays with it, stares at it, stares at anything but the man sitting across from him. "Nobody," he says as firmly as he can.
Erik lets out a harsh laugh. "I'm supposed to believe you did this to yourself? Try again, Charles."
Charles stands up. "It's not important, really, none of your business. Nothing terrible. I can't really remember, I was drunk." And it's obviously a blatant lie, Charles has an excellent memory, remembers everything that happens when he's drunk.
Everything.
Before Erik can say anything or stand up himself, Charles just walks quickly back to his room and locks the door behind him.
He breathes.
He doesn't know what else to do.
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The feelings... I just.
The stream of consciousness story telling works so perfectly, brings me right into flow of events and makes the pain of it all so much more visceral.
Thank you for this.
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I'm so glad you like the stream of consciousness. Thank you again, your comment really made me feel good about this story!
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Op is extremely, extremely grateful, anon. This is absolutely heart-breaking to read and just what I wanted, revenge or no revenge. I hope there'll be an update soon! :D
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