I Love You and everything about You...
Who would have ever thought that 8 months ago, the choice to go bowling would change my life around, though i didnt know it then. Its weird how you can be somewhere and barely even notice someone and then months later youre in their arms on a friday night just watching t.v and listening to music. This is what happened with mike and me..i dont know why i just feel like writing all this down..so here goes..
...back in late july my boyfriend at the time, one of mikes best friends, invited my cousin and i to go bowling with him and a few others. i dont know what it was but for some reason i was getting really nervous and i couldnt be myself, i barely spoke at all..until i asked about a sox game and mike answered. other than that, we hadnt said anything to each other besides hi. then a few days later an 'accept message' box came up with mikes sn in it. we didnt really even say much then again, so it kind of died after a while..
two months went by and in october my cousin invited me to their homecoming dance..so i started to talk to mike again to see if evan was going to go...then at the homecoming dance, i didnt even recognize mike when he said hi so i probably ignored him there too...after i got back from spending an extremely fun weekend with my cousin..i think that was the big bugs weekend haha not sure tho... so mike and i started talking again online and it became so much easier to talk to him about anything and sooner or later, we were talking everyday..sometimes twice a day and especially during sox and pats games..since we were both going into boston for the sox parade after they were WORLD SERIES CHAMPS!!!!!!! WOOO!!!!!! ..we decided to meet up there. it was there that i threw my first toiletpaper roll oh.jesus. never again...so after the parade was over, jen and i followed him and his friend to near north station and we said goodbye..
we kept talking online and everything about him just kept getting better and better, how he was so helpful, considerate, caring, and easy-going..he invited me to a celtics game where even though our section was dead except for that one guy..it was amazing..but after was my favorite part. snowball annihilation by karen. MUUAHAHA..and it was then that i really started falling for him...we kept talking but the night before the celts game, i was asked out by someone i thought i liked..after realizing we were completely different people with completely different directions and noticing the feelings i had for mike only getting stronger, i decided it was time to end things with kevin. but then, i remembered how hard having a long distance relationship was and how it required a lot of committment and work so i got scared and put off the breakup..but eventually i realized that there isnt a point to loving, or living for that matter, if you dont risk getting hurt. after seeing him at the football game, and then at a wrestling quad meet i knew that he was the one i wanted to be with, and belonged with. so me and kevin broke up and i do say, that relationship taught me a lot about who i am and different things about dating...
...being a free agent, the first thing i did was tell mike because if not already obvious, i wanted to be with him more than anything...so we went into boston that thursday of winter break and we skated and walked around and then back to north station where we had some time to kill and so we waited on the steps and it was there that he asked me out. it was amazing, i had dancing in the moonlight playing in my head and the most amazing guy sitting next to me asking me to be his girlfriend. i was so lucky. so we went back to wilmington, said our goodbyes and i was on my way...
...since then weve been hanging out almost every weekend for close to 2 months and being with him is the most incredible feeling in the world. whether or not he believes it, i think he is the most attractive, funny, intelligent, caring, personable, generous, thoughtful, oh good god, hes just so damn perfect and i love him so goddam much. last night he came over and we just watched t.v and listented to music and watched t.v and then went to the charlie horse with a few of my friends and i dont know if he had a good time, but whenever im with him..i get this amazing feeling and cant stop smiling. he makes me feel like no one else could and when he looks at me my heart races and i get lost in his gorgeous brown eyes. i wish we never had to leave each other when the night comes to an end, that we could just stay together instead of going home. with all this luck i seem to be having, i just hope i dont screw it up by being my spastic annoying self and i hope this lasts for a long time. usually about two weeks after i start seeing someone, i detach myself and cant breathe because its too long and too much of a committment..but with mike..i dont know. its different. i havent felt anything but complete love for him and its only gotten stronger the longer weve been together...he truly is amazing and the only one for me and i love him with all my heart and soul and with all that i am.... ..funny how things happen like that huh...who would have ever thought id meet the love of my life at a bowling alley on a rainy summers night...
keep smiling everyone...thanks to mike, ill always be..
<3 Karen <3