Senhora - Aurélia Camargo/Fernando Seixas.
Fandom: Senhora.
Pairing: Aurélia Camargo/Fernando Seixas.
Theme Set: Beta.
Rating: PG-13 overall.
Notes on “Senhora”: This is a rather obscure fandom. “Senhora” is a 19th century Brazilian novel about a young and poor girl (Aurélia) who is abandoned by her suitor (Fernando) in favor of a girl who has a good dowry. After she unexpectedly receives an inheritance and becomes rich, she decides to “buy” Fernando as her husband, making sure to inform him (on their wedding night no less) that she bought him because a husband is a necessary commodity for all respectable women. For the next eleven months they live estranged though they love each other, until Fernando finds the means to buy his freedom back.
You can learn more about “Senhora” here.
If you read Portuguese, you can find the whole novel here (legally provided by the Brazilian government, as its Copyright has expired).
Author’s Notes: The sentences in this post are in their set order. You can find them in a more chronological order here.
#01 - Walking
Every night, as they walked in the garden after supper, Fernando forced himself to forget the bitter reality and tried to imagine they were back in the house in Santa Teresa street, still inebriated in the joy of first love.
#02 - Waltz
As they spun round and round, the world becoming a blur around them, he held her close and for a moment pretended that she still was the woman he loved.
#03 - Wishes
As soon as Fernando left her dressing room on their wedding night, Aurélia fell to the ground, swept by a wave of despair, wishing with all her might that he would come back and take her in his arms.
#04 - Wonder
It was with great wonder that the mucama found her master and mistress asleep on their marital bed for the first time, eleven months after their marriage.
#05 - Worry
Though she knew herself to be pitied by many because she was destined for spinsterhood, as she saw a strange glint in her new sister's eyes Mariquinhas could not help but worry more for her brother's future than for her own.
#06 - Whimsy
Every time he smiled at her, joylessly, and told her he was ready to acquiesce every single one of her whims, Aurélia could not help but notice that revenge was not nearly as satisfying as she had believed it would be.
#07 - Waste/Wasteland
Some nights, when he could not sleep, Fernando stared at the ceiling and contemplated the barren and unhappy life he and Aurélia had sentenced themselves to.
#08 - Whiskey and rum
The bottle that lay on the table was a tempting reminder that he could forget, at least for a while, the complete farce that his life had become; yet he did not yield to temptation, for he was determined to finish what he had started clinging to the small amount of dignity he had left.
#09 - War
The war was perhaps so terrible because so much of it was waged in silence, with only looks and gestures used as weapons.
#10 - Weddings
The day of their wedding, while he contemplated all the future happiness that would encompass their lives, all she could think of was revenge.
#11 - Birthday
The carnations tied with a simple blue ribbon were certainly not the most original or expensive of birthday gifts, but to Aurélia they were more precious than anything else she had ever received.
#12 - Blessing
Every time she sacrificed herself for him, putting his needs before her own, he was ashamed to think of her love as more of a burden that left him imprisoned by honor than the blessing it was.
#13 - Bias
He wondered if she held any sort of distinction between her African slaves and him.
#14 - Burning
Hours after the party ended she could still fell her skin burning everywhere it had come in contact with his.
#15 - Breathing
He lived his life like an automaton, reminding himself at times that he had to breathe despite the pain.
#16 - Breaking
The moment she handed him back the receipt he had signed, freeing him of every obligation towards her, she felt her heart shatter in thousands of pieces.
#17 - Belief
When Dona Firmina said she believed Aurélia to be pregnant, Fernando was surprised at the pain he felt for what could never be.
#18 - Balloon
As he read in the newspaper about yet another oddity the Emperor had decided to bring to Brazil, Fernando contemplated how wonderful it would be to just fly away and leave all of his problems behind.
#19 - Balcony
Every night after she went to bed following her exhibition at the window in the hopes of attracting a suitor as her mother so dearly wished, Aurélia would cry herself to sleep and dream about true love.
#20 - Bane
He was both the bane of her existence and her dearest love, and though he was the reason she still lived, he was also her death wish.
#21 - Quiet
After they retired for bed, Aurélia would stand beside the door that separated their chambers, unlock it and - full of both apprehension and hope - wait for him, though he never came.
#22 - Quirks
Aurélia’s curiosity had been roused when she heard the slaves talk about their master's quirks, for she could not imagine a single reason that might lead him to lock the soap of all things.
#23 - Question
"What's this, Aurélia," he had asked; and though she told him it was her will, she actually meant it was a declaration of love.
#24 - Quarrel
When Adelaide asked Torquato if he though Aurélia and Fernando had quarreled, he simply laughed, because everyone knew there was not a single couple in all of Rio that was more in love than them.
#25 - Quitting
No matter how hard it was to simply go on living, Fernando was determined not to quit until he was a free man once more.
#26 - Jump
As soon as he saw Aurélia and Eduardo Abreu alone in their house, Fernando's mind was quick to jump to conclusions.
#27 - Jester
Though most people took Aurélia's price estimations as an innocent jester, Alfredo Moreira wondered why she had chosen Seixas over him since they wore both worth the same amount.
#28 - Jousting
She talked to him in thinly disguised barbs, he answered her with mocking placitude, thrusting and parrying in an endless joust of wits that only led to their own despair.
#29 - Jewel
She looked radiant, dressed in finery and covered in jewels, yet Fernando missed the simple girl he fell in love with, whose only adornments were washed-out ribbons.
#30 - Just
Every time they fought, every night they spent apart, Aurélia had to remind herself that what she was doing was justice and not mere revenge.
#31 - Smirk
Worse than her cruel words was the little smirk that appeared every time she noticed he had been affected by something she said.
#32 - Sorrow
He often cursed his own weakness, the sole thing responsible for both his sorrows and hers.
#33 - Stupidity
He left her still trembling, staring bewitched at that accursed portrait; and cursed himself for his own stupidity in wanting to believe that things were about to change.
#34 - Serenade
The girl in Santa Teresa street was so pretty - he heard his friends say - that Eduardo Abreu had exposed himself to ridicule and serenaded her.
#35 - Sarcasm
That afternoon, as he failed to show at his usual time, Aurélia regretted deeply the sarcastic words she had said to him the day before, for she knew how much they had hurt him.
#36 - Sordid
When he saw her sitting alone with Eduardo Abreu in their own parlor, he wondered if this cruel, sordid and dissimulate woman had really once been the sweet and innocent girl he loved.
#37 - Soliloquy
In the evenings he sat by her side and recited poems, but he could tell - though she was good at pretending - that she was not really listening to him.
#38 - Sojourn
He suggested a sojourn in Europe, but what she could not tell him was that she would die if she went so far away from him.
#39 - Share
After that first night they never stopped sharing a bed again.
#40 - Solitary
She had many slaves, amusing friends and a husband that was prepared to do whatever she wanted, yet she had never felt so alone.
#41 - Nowhere
For a second he considered going back on his word, but he knew there would be nowhere to hide from the shame and dishonour.
#42 - Neutral
Locked inside his chambers, the only neutral ground this house had to offer, Fernando finally allowed himself to drop all pretenses.
#43 - Nuance
In eleven months he had learned to read her well, to interpret every gesture, to capture every nuance of her temper.
#44 - Near
As they walked in the gardens, her arm linked with his, Aurélia contemplated how it was possible to stand so close to someone and still be so far away.
#45 - Natural
Though Dona Camila believed that it was natural that a son should abandon his mother's home to form a new one with his wife, Fernando's distance still hurt her deeply.
#46 - Horizon
That fateful night when his world collapsed, Fernando found inside himself an unknown strength that allowed him to plan his liberation from captivity as he stared at the horizon, waiting for the dawn.
#47 - Valiant
How brave she was - Fernando thought to himself - for despite facing her mother’s imminent death and her own poverty, she still had the courage to sacrifice herself for him.
#48 - Virtuous
When he told her about the impropriety of her behavior with Eduardo Abreu, Aurélia allowed herself to believe for a moment that he was jealous and not simply acting as a defender of morality.
#49 - Victory
No matter how much he had longed for that moment, when Fernando received the money that would finally enable him to buy his freedom he didn't have the will to be happy about it.
#50 - Defeat
Never had she been as happy as in the moment she kneeled before him, completely defeated, and professed her love.
Pairing: Aurélia Camargo/Fernando Seixas.
Theme Set: Beta.
Rating: PG-13 overall.
Notes on “Senhora”: This is a rather obscure fandom. “Senhora” is a 19th century Brazilian novel about a young and poor girl (Aurélia) who is abandoned by her suitor (Fernando) in favor of a girl who has a good dowry. After she unexpectedly receives an inheritance and becomes rich, she decides to “buy” Fernando as her husband, making sure to inform him (on their wedding night no less) that she bought him because a husband is a necessary commodity for all respectable women. For the next eleven months they live estranged though they love each other, until Fernando finds the means to buy his freedom back.
You can learn more about “Senhora” here.
If you read Portuguese, you can find the whole novel here (legally provided by the Brazilian government, as its Copyright has expired).
Author’s Notes: The sentences in this post are in their set order. You can find them in a more chronological order here.
#01 - Walking
Every night, as they walked in the garden after supper, Fernando forced himself to forget the bitter reality and tried to imagine they were back in the house in Santa Teresa street, still inebriated in the joy of first love.
#02 - Waltz
As they spun round and round, the world becoming a blur around them, he held her close and for a moment pretended that she still was the woman he loved.
#03 - Wishes
As soon as Fernando left her dressing room on their wedding night, Aurélia fell to the ground, swept by a wave of despair, wishing with all her might that he would come back and take her in his arms.
#04 - Wonder
It was with great wonder that the mucama found her master and mistress asleep on their marital bed for the first time, eleven months after their marriage.
#05 - Worry
Though she knew herself to be pitied by many because she was destined for spinsterhood, as she saw a strange glint in her new sister's eyes Mariquinhas could not help but worry more for her brother's future than for her own.
#06 - Whimsy
Every time he smiled at her, joylessly, and told her he was ready to acquiesce every single one of her whims, Aurélia could not help but notice that revenge was not nearly as satisfying as she had believed it would be.
#07 - Waste/Wasteland
Some nights, when he could not sleep, Fernando stared at the ceiling and contemplated the barren and unhappy life he and Aurélia had sentenced themselves to.
#08 - Whiskey and rum
The bottle that lay on the table was a tempting reminder that he could forget, at least for a while, the complete farce that his life had become; yet he did not yield to temptation, for he was determined to finish what he had started clinging to the small amount of dignity he had left.
#09 - War
The war was perhaps so terrible because so much of it was waged in silence, with only looks and gestures used as weapons.
#10 - Weddings
The day of their wedding, while he contemplated all the future happiness that would encompass their lives, all she could think of was revenge.
#11 - Birthday
The carnations tied with a simple blue ribbon were certainly not the most original or expensive of birthday gifts, but to Aurélia they were more precious than anything else she had ever received.
#12 - Blessing
Every time she sacrificed herself for him, putting his needs before her own, he was ashamed to think of her love as more of a burden that left him imprisoned by honor than the blessing it was.
#13 - Bias
He wondered if she held any sort of distinction between her African slaves and him.
#14 - Burning
Hours after the party ended she could still fell her skin burning everywhere it had come in contact with his.
#15 - Breathing
He lived his life like an automaton, reminding himself at times that he had to breathe despite the pain.
#16 - Breaking
The moment she handed him back the receipt he had signed, freeing him of every obligation towards her, she felt her heart shatter in thousands of pieces.
#17 - Belief
When Dona Firmina said she believed Aurélia to be pregnant, Fernando was surprised at the pain he felt for what could never be.
#18 - Balloon
As he read in the newspaper about yet another oddity the Emperor had decided to bring to Brazil, Fernando contemplated how wonderful it would be to just fly away and leave all of his problems behind.
#19 - Balcony
Every night after she went to bed following her exhibition at the window in the hopes of attracting a suitor as her mother so dearly wished, Aurélia would cry herself to sleep and dream about true love.
#20 - Bane
He was both the bane of her existence and her dearest love, and though he was the reason she still lived, he was also her death wish.
#21 - Quiet
After they retired for bed, Aurélia would stand beside the door that separated their chambers, unlock it and - full of both apprehension and hope - wait for him, though he never came.
#22 - Quirks
Aurélia’s curiosity had been roused when she heard the slaves talk about their master's quirks, for she could not imagine a single reason that might lead him to lock the soap of all things.
#23 - Question
"What's this, Aurélia," he had asked; and though she told him it was her will, she actually meant it was a declaration of love.
#24 - Quarrel
When Adelaide asked Torquato if he though Aurélia and Fernando had quarreled, he simply laughed, because everyone knew there was not a single couple in all of Rio that was more in love than them.
#25 - Quitting
No matter how hard it was to simply go on living, Fernando was determined not to quit until he was a free man once more.
#26 - Jump
As soon as he saw Aurélia and Eduardo Abreu alone in their house, Fernando's mind was quick to jump to conclusions.
#27 - Jester
Though most people took Aurélia's price estimations as an innocent jester, Alfredo Moreira wondered why she had chosen Seixas over him since they wore both worth the same amount.
#28 - Jousting
She talked to him in thinly disguised barbs, he answered her with mocking placitude, thrusting and parrying in an endless joust of wits that only led to their own despair.
#29 - Jewel
She looked radiant, dressed in finery and covered in jewels, yet Fernando missed the simple girl he fell in love with, whose only adornments were washed-out ribbons.
#30 - Just
Every time they fought, every night they spent apart, Aurélia had to remind herself that what she was doing was justice and not mere revenge.
#31 - Smirk
Worse than her cruel words was the little smirk that appeared every time she noticed he had been affected by something she said.
#32 - Sorrow
He often cursed his own weakness, the sole thing responsible for both his sorrows and hers.
#33 - Stupidity
He left her still trembling, staring bewitched at that accursed portrait; and cursed himself for his own stupidity in wanting to believe that things were about to change.
#34 - Serenade
The girl in Santa Teresa street was so pretty - he heard his friends say - that Eduardo Abreu had exposed himself to ridicule and serenaded her.
#35 - Sarcasm
That afternoon, as he failed to show at his usual time, Aurélia regretted deeply the sarcastic words she had said to him the day before, for she knew how much they had hurt him.
#36 - Sordid
When he saw her sitting alone with Eduardo Abreu in their own parlor, he wondered if this cruel, sordid and dissimulate woman had really once been the sweet and innocent girl he loved.
#37 - Soliloquy
In the evenings he sat by her side and recited poems, but he could tell - though she was good at pretending - that she was not really listening to him.
#38 - Sojourn
He suggested a sojourn in Europe, but what she could not tell him was that she would die if she went so far away from him.
#39 - Share
After that first night they never stopped sharing a bed again.
#40 - Solitary
She had many slaves, amusing friends and a husband that was prepared to do whatever she wanted, yet she had never felt so alone.
#41 - Nowhere
For a second he considered going back on his word, but he knew there would be nowhere to hide from the shame and dishonour.
#42 - Neutral
Locked inside his chambers, the only neutral ground this house had to offer, Fernando finally allowed himself to drop all pretenses.
#43 - Nuance
In eleven months he had learned to read her well, to interpret every gesture, to capture every nuance of her temper.
#44 - Near
As they walked in the gardens, her arm linked with his, Aurélia contemplated how it was possible to stand so close to someone and still be so far away.
#45 - Natural
Though Dona Camila believed that it was natural that a son should abandon his mother's home to form a new one with his wife, Fernando's distance still hurt her deeply.
#46 - Horizon
That fateful night when his world collapsed, Fernando found inside himself an unknown strength that allowed him to plan his liberation from captivity as he stared at the horizon, waiting for the dawn.
#47 - Valiant
How brave she was - Fernando thought to himself - for despite facing her mother’s imminent death and her own poverty, she still had the courage to sacrifice herself for him.
#48 - Virtuous
When he told her about the impropriety of her behavior with Eduardo Abreu, Aurélia allowed herself to believe for a moment that he was jealous and not simply acting as a defender of morality.
#49 - Victory
No matter how much he had longed for that moment, when Fernando received the money that would finally enable him to buy his freedom he didn't have the will to be happy about it.
#50 - Defeat
Never had she been as happy as in the moment she kneeled before him, completely defeated, and professed her love.