Brideshead Revisited - Charles/Sebastian
Fandom: Brideshead Revisited
Pairing: Charles Ryder/Sebatian Flyte
Theme set: Beta
Rating: PG
1- Walking
It was going arm in arm, linking together, that Charles first felt that dangerous, lurching slip.
2 - Waltz
Swirling, tangling, making mockeries of whirling dervishes, they practiced their steps while Julia waited outside in the cab.
3 - Wishes
The entire family wishes Sebastian was well, so they take to hiding liquor with sad eyes - Charles tries to make Sebastian well, so he loves him desperately.
4 - Wonder
“Golly,” Charles says as he stares at the painted ceiling; it’s too lush, too beautiful, and his body won’t stand it.
5 - Worry
Eventually the sickness spreads to Charles, so that while Sebastian lies killing himself, all Charles can do is think of how bitter the worry has made him.
6 - Whimsy
Sebastian makes a mess of poetry when he tries to write it, he’s too charming, too lovely, too pleased with what he has discovered to be morbid.
7 - Wasteland
Let us go then, you & I, while the evening is spread out - Charles reads these texts voraciously, while Sebastian was the type to go out and write the philosophy in his veins
8 - Whiskey and rum
The contrast between those first, idyllic, gin-soaked evenings and the ultimate, bitter tang of brandy is unbearable; the contrast between love and fear is like whiskey on their tongues.
9 - War
Sebastian begins his war against his mother and her memories, forgetting that he was a pacifist at heart.
10 - Weddings
I think I want to marry you, but Charles can’t articulate it, so he does his best to show.
11 - Birthday
His father sent him an antique, pristine, immaculately crafted watch, Sebastian taught him how to love someone - one gift was better than the other.
12 - Blessing
God has chosen, and Sebastian doesn’t defy.
13 - Bias
As soon as Charles declared “Contra mundum,” the battle lines were drawn, so he made his weapons human affection and a desperate, unsustainable love.
14 - Burning
The alcohol sliding down Sebastian’s throat numbs him slowly into tranquility, but Charles’ skin is hot on his spine.
15 - Breathing
At some point Charles begins to question everything, wondering if (as bad as he is), he doesn’t even breathe right anymore.
16 - Breaking
The first time the wine glass falls from Sebastian’s hands and shatters is the first moment when Charles thinks he might not love him anymore.
17 - Belief
Sebastian prays absentmindedly, as though it is so habitual he does not have the heart to shake it.
18 - Balloon
After a long time adrift, Charles felt his heart expanding, blustering in the warm air, swelling like a red, clumsy balloon.
19 - Balcony
Standing on the Venetian veranda, they watch each other, neither able to give up all of their secrets.
20 - Bane
The same beastly scout who evidently bore a grudge against Aloysius, found out about the crimes of his owner, and bore his loathing tightly in his chest.
21 - Quiet
“You’re sick,” Charles sighs into the nape of Sebastian’s neck, but the silence between them becomes overwhelming.
22 - Quirks
The teddy bear started as an idiosyncrasy, it became a symbol of his fear, but to Charles it was always just a quirk.
23 - Question
“You love me,” Sebastian mutters, trying to make it a statement, but the seeds of doubt are crawling in and they shape it into a question.
24 - Quarrel
Charles is sick of fighting, of fighting over the wine and the boys and the mother (Oh god, the Mother), so he says nothing, holds back just a fragment more, and hopes Sebastian won’t notice.
25 - Quitting
Every time Sebastian promises to stop, Charles still gets that flutter in the barrel of his belly, and he believes.
26 - Jump
The worst part was Sebastian staring forlornly out of the window, as if the ground beneath was taunting him, and there was nothing Charles could say to make it alright.
27 - Jester
Mr. Samgrass was such a comical fool that they underestimated his threat, and took the danger of his slow eyes too lightly.
28 - Jousting
Until it became a sparring match where they tried to wound each other with words, with threats, jabbing and jerking; when Charles draws up Lady Marchmain and immediately regrets it, and settles to the unenviable task of repairing the damage he has wrought.
29 - Jewel
The beastly jeweled tortoise, a grey symbol of that rotting family line, was so odious and so un-Sebastian that Charles wanted nothing more than to punt it across the room.
30 - Just
It was never fair that when Charles finally found someone he could love, it came with so many lingering threads attached.
31 - Smirk
Sebastian bursts out in a flowering grin that could put the stars to shame - “We ought to be in love, it’s the only option.”
32 - Sorrow
It was impossible to be sad against the Venetian glory, even as Sebastian borrowed his father’s Byronic air he wound up losing it in the rush of the canal and the songs of the boatmen.
33 - Stupidity
Sebastian doesn’t know how someone so smart can be so stupid about the fundamental ways of the world.
34 - Serenade
Neither of them can sing, so they take turns with tactile sonatas and arias of the flesh - a symphony sounds better if conducted without voices.
35 - Sarcasm
Occasionally he feels the world sneering at them, deriding their other-ness, at those times he knows that their love cannot survive under the caustic air of intolerance.
36 - Sordid
Grave naughtiness became a sort of wicked pleasure, and they swear they aren’t guilty for a single thing they’ve done.
- 37 Soliloquy
After Antony Blanche’s performance on the roof, Charles disliked him; after his attempted treason against Sebastian, Charles was full of loathing.
38 - Sojourn
.They journey through the peach gardens of Brideshead, getting lost under the green shadows and leaving their howls to the English sky.
39 - Share
“They want to make you their friend, not mine,” Sebastian hissed, while Charles just watched him, thinking that you don’t share love.
40 - Solitary
Sebastian inherited more than his father’s angelic looks; he was born into a legacy of punishing solitude that no amount of kindness could redeem.
41 - Nowhere
When Sebastian suggests that they run away together (New York, Paris, Anywhere), Charles doesn’t have the heart to tell that there’s nowhere you can go to run away from yourself.
42 - Neutral
Let the damned house crumble, let it melt, let it burn, it doesn’t mean a thing, Sebastian feels the hatred coursing in his veins, loathing the house for simply holding in all this anger and never showing any destruction in its façade.
43 - Nuance
He first guessed about Sebastian from the looks he got over lunch, the subtle hints that he couldn’t quite explain and left grave but merry doubts in his head.
44 - Near
From that first, inconsequential meeting the in barbershop, it was inevitable - just from the rush Charles gets at Sebastian haphazardly brushing up against him.
45 - Natural
Lazing along the sunlight banks, the groves of trees making sweet curtains from the brightness, Sebastian for once stops assuming his wickedness and thinks that his love is the most natural thing in the world.
46 - Horizon
The boat churns churlishly, jolting Charles, who peers across and sees nothing but the great emptiness of the sea, with Julia perhaps touching his wrist under the sky.
47 - Valiant
Toying with vague fantasies of chivalry (and perhaps reconciling them to his current situation), Charles does what he can to save, struggling valiantly against the current of memories that he had no hand in making.
48 - Virtuous
Cordelia remembers to be herself, and in that way is never far from God; Sebastian does everything to forget himself, and in that way he is forever on the edge of depravity.
49 - Victory
At some point they relish the small, beautiful victories of the world: when their fingertips keep contact, when they ignore the ring of the telephone, and when they are so wrapped up in each other that they can’t tell the early and late hours apart.
50 - Defeat
The last time he sees him, the last time they will ever drag up those brutal memories of love, Charles realizes he has lost everything -and the only thing-- he ever really cared for; the knowledge is so startling that it hits him like a blow, bringing down his knees to the stain of the Eastern sand.
Pairing: Charles Ryder/Sebatian Flyte
Theme set: Beta
Rating: PG
1- Walking
It was going arm in arm, linking together, that Charles first felt that dangerous, lurching slip.
2 - Waltz
Swirling, tangling, making mockeries of whirling dervishes, they practiced their steps while Julia waited outside in the cab.
3 - Wishes
The entire family wishes Sebastian was well, so they take to hiding liquor with sad eyes - Charles tries to make Sebastian well, so he loves him desperately.
4 - Wonder
“Golly,” Charles says as he stares at the painted ceiling; it’s too lush, too beautiful, and his body won’t stand it.
5 - Worry
Eventually the sickness spreads to Charles, so that while Sebastian lies killing himself, all Charles can do is think of how bitter the worry has made him.
6 - Whimsy
Sebastian makes a mess of poetry when he tries to write it, he’s too charming, too lovely, too pleased with what he has discovered to be morbid.
7 - Wasteland
Let us go then, you & I, while the evening is spread out - Charles reads these texts voraciously, while Sebastian was the type to go out and write the philosophy in his veins
8 - Whiskey and rum
The contrast between those first, idyllic, gin-soaked evenings and the ultimate, bitter tang of brandy is unbearable; the contrast between love and fear is like whiskey on their tongues.
9 - War
Sebastian begins his war against his mother and her memories, forgetting that he was a pacifist at heart.
10 - Weddings
I think I want to marry you, but Charles can’t articulate it, so he does his best to show.
11 - Birthday
His father sent him an antique, pristine, immaculately crafted watch, Sebastian taught him how to love someone - one gift was better than the other.
12 - Blessing
God has chosen, and Sebastian doesn’t defy.
13 - Bias
As soon as Charles declared “Contra mundum,” the battle lines were drawn, so he made his weapons human affection and a desperate, unsustainable love.
14 - Burning
The alcohol sliding down Sebastian’s throat numbs him slowly into tranquility, but Charles’ skin is hot on his spine.
15 - Breathing
At some point Charles begins to question everything, wondering if (as bad as he is), he doesn’t even breathe right anymore.
16 - Breaking
The first time the wine glass falls from Sebastian’s hands and shatters is the first moment when Charles thinks he might not love him anymore.
17 - Belief
Sebastian prays absentmindedly, as though it is so habitual he does not have the heart to shake it.
18 - Balloon
After a long time adrift, Charles felt his heart expanding, blustering in the warm air, swelling like a red, clumsy balloon.
19 - Balcony
Standing on the Venetian veranda, they watch each other, neither able to give up all of their secrets.
20 - Bane
The same beastly scout who evidently bore a grudge against Aloysius, found out about the crimes of his owner, and bore his loathing tightly in his chest.
21 - Quiet
“You’re sick,” Charles sighs into the nape of Sebastian’s neck, but the silence between them becomes overwhelming.
22 - Quirks
The teddy bear started as an idiosyncrasy, it became a symbol of his fear, but to Charles it was always just a quirk.
23 - Question
“You love me,” Sebastian mutters, trying to make it a statement, but the seeds of doubt are crawling in and they shape it into a question.
24 - Quarrel
Charles is sick of fighting, of fighting over the wine and the boys and the mother (Oh god, the Mother), so he says nothing, holds back just a fragment more, and hopes Sebastian won’t notice.
25 - Quitting
Every time Sebastian promises to stop, Charles still gets that flutter in the barrel of his belly, and he believes.
26 - Jump
The worst part was Sebastian staring forlornly out of the window, as if the ground beneath was taunting him, and there was nothing Charles could say to make it alright.
27 - Jester
Mr. Samgrass was such a comical fool that they underestimated his threat, and took the danger of his slow eyes too lightly.
28 - Jousting
Until it became a sparring match where they tried to wound each other with words, with threats, jabbing and jerking; when Charles draws up Lady Marchmain and immediately regrets it, and settles to the unenviable task of repairing the damage he has wrought.
29 - Jewel
The beastly jeweled tortoise, a grey symbol of that rotting family line, was so odious and so un-Sebastian that Charles wanted nothing more than to punt it across the room.
30 - Just
It was never fair that when Charles finally found someone he could love, it came with so many lingering threads attached.
31 - Smirk
Sebastian bursts out in a flowering grin that could put the stars to shame - “We ought to be in love, it’s the only option.”
32 - Sorrow
It was impossible to be sad against the Venetian glory, even as Sebastian borrowed his father’s Byronic air he wound up losing it in the rush of the canal and the songs of the boatmen.
33 - Stupidity
Sebastian doesn’t know how someone so smart can be so stupid about the fundamental ways of the world.
34 - Serenade
Neither of them can sing, so they take turns with tactile sonatas and arias of the flesh - a symphony sounds better if conducted without voices.
35 - Sarcasm
Occasionally he feels the world sneering at them, deriding their other-ness, at those times he knows that their love cannot survive under the caustic air of intolerance.
36 - Sordid
Grave naughtiness became a sort of wicked pleasure, and they swear they aren’t guilty for a single thing they’ve done.
- 37 Soliloquy
After Antony Blanche’s performance on the roof, Charles disliked him; after his attempted treason against Sebastian, Charles was full of loathing.
38 - Sojourn
.They journey through the peach gardens of Brideshead, getting lost under the green shadows and leaving their howls to the English sky.
39 - Share
“They want to make you their friend, not mine,” Sebastian hissed, while Charles just watched him, thinking that you don’t share love.
40 - Solitary
Sebastian inherited more than his father’s angelic looks; he was born into a legacy of punishing solitude that no amount of kindness could redeem.
41 - Nowhere
When Sebastian suggests that they run away together (New York, Paris, Anywhere), Charles doesn’t have the heart to tell that there’s nowhere you can go to run away from yourself.
42 - Neutral
Let the damned house crumble, let it melt, let it burn, it doesn’t mean a thing, Sebastian feels the hatred coursing in his veins, loathing the house for simply holding in all this anger and never showing any destruction in its façade.
43 - Nuance
He first guessed about Sebastian from the looks he got over lunch, the subtle hints that he couldn’t quite explain and left grave but merry doubts in his head.
44 - Near
From that first, inconsequential meeting the in barbershop, it was inevitable - just from the rush Charles gets at Sebastian haphazardly brushing up against him.
45 - Natural
Lazing along the sunlight banks, the groves of trees making sweet curtains from the brightness, Sebastian for once stops assuming his wickedness and thinks that his love is the most natural thing in the world.
46 - Horizon
The boat churns churlishly, jolting Charles, who peers across and sees nothing but the great emptiness of the sea, with Julia perhaps touching his wrist under the sky.
47 - Valiant
Toying with vague fantasies of chivalry (and perhaps reconciling them to his current situation), Charles does what he can to save, struggling valiantly against the current of memories that he had no hand in making.
48 - Virtuous
Cordelia remembers to be herself, and in that way is never far from God; Sebastian does everything to forget himself, and in that way he is forever on the edge of depravity.
49 - Victory
At some point they relish the small, beautiful victories of the world: when their fingertips keep contact, when they ignore the ring of the telephone, and when they are so wrapped up in each other that they can’t tell the early and late hours apart.
50 - Defeat
The last time he sees him, the last time they will ever drag up those brutal memories of love, Charles realizes he has lost everything -and the only thing-- he ever really cared for; the knowledge is so startling that it hits him like a blow, bringing down his knees to the stain of the Eastern sand.