Fandom: Battlestar Galactica (2003).
Pairing: Kara "Starbuck" Thrace x Lee "Apollo" Adama.
Theme set: Beta.
Rating: Erm... R?
Notes: Give it up for TS Eliot and William Shakespeare! =]
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beyond_insane as well as
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01. - Walking
“Take a walk, Kara,” he’d hissed through gritted teeth, but she’d ignored him and ten minutes later she is in the brig sort of wishing she hadn’t.
02. - Waltz
When he asks to dance with the bride, he thinks that she looks sadder than she did on the day of her first fiancée’s funeral (and, when he tells her so, very quietly, everyone watches as he receives a black eye and a string of curses from aforementioned bride).
03. - Wishes
She had asked why there had to be such a thing in life as death, and he had told her that his grandmother always said, “If wishes were horses, every beggar would ride,” and she had looked at him blankly for a very long time before he told her that death just existed, and that he missed his grandmother very much sometimes.
04. - Wonder
He was just rather jubilant to see her still breathing, and he wanted very much to know what the frak happened to her, and he had this hunch that she wouldn’t want to tell him, and he felt vaguely that he would need to shock her to get any sort of a proper answer out of her, and, let’s face it, he’d been really stressed that week… and that’s where that infamous kiss happened to come from, if you happened to be wondering.
05. - Worry
She doesn’t worry if he reacts in an isolated matter, it’s just when he stop eating, stops sleeping, works too much, snaps too easily, AND exercises too much that it starts to get just a tad disconcerting.
06. - Whimsy
“Well gosh, Lee,” she giggles, swinging her legs over the edge of the wing of her Viper, “I think if I could have anything I wanted, I’d definitely have to go with a million zillion cubits and a pony;” and he tries to suppress a smile when the thought enters his head that he wants his daughter -- if he ever has one -- to turn out just like her.
07. - Waste/Wasteland
She looks out over her new home (a tent in the mud between two other tents in the mud) and she wonders for the millionth time if she’s frakked up again and she thinks of him at home with his wife inside his damn near-empty battlestar and she wonders if he is wondering the same thing that she is wondering that very second; and when her husband Samuel sneaks up from behind and wraps his arms around her, caressing her neck with three-day-old stubble, she says, very matter-of-factly, “There are no eyes here, in this valley of dying stars, in this hollow valley, this broken jaw of our lost kingdoms,” and she walks away from him and Sam doesn’t say anything because he’s not like Lee at all.
08. - Whiskey and rum
It all started one night in this seedy little bar near the Academy.
09. - War
He tries to act like it didn’t break his heart when she said, “Because this is war, you dipshit.”
10. - Weddings
He invited her to the Adama/Dualla union ceremony, and somehow he wasn’t surprised when she declined the honor of being the best man, just sort of crushed.
11. - Birthday
The first time she meets him, it’s his birthday and Zak has volunteered to take him drinking so that he can meet the amazing fiancée, and, when he does meet the amazing fiancée, he can’t help but deeply regret that Zak met her first.
12. - Blessing
When she thinks he is asleep, she places a gentle hand in his hair and says a quiet prayer for his soul.
13. - Bias
He is fully aware of the low blow he’s dealt Tigh by saying, “Well, Sir, maybe it’s something akin to the, ah, slight bias you seem have for alcohol,” but The Superior Asshole’s reaction was just too good, and by this point Lee has honestly stopped caring about consequences.
14. - Burning
Secretly, her tears on his skin burned him worse than that one time when he was small and he touched the iron that made his father’s dress uniforms so crisp.
15. - Breathing
They are drinking and talking and he is telling her all about Zak’s shortcomings and about how he thinks that maybe she could do better than his little brother, and everything is fine and well until he gets too serious and he fraks up as usual, and he captures her face ever so gently in the palm of his hand and breathes into her lips, “You should be marrying me, Kara,” and he kisses her and it feels like the most beautiful thing of his life until she springs away from him with one heart-wrenching sob before flinging the still half-full bottle of alcohol at his head and telling him to frak off and get the frak out of her apartment, now, while he still can.
16. - Breaking
“Why do you have to keep frakkin’ breaking my Vipers?” he screams, throwing his hands into the air and ignoring her vicious response.
17. - Belief
She sighs and intimates to him exactly why everyone believes the lies that all Adama men tell.
18. - Balloon
When she shakes her head and looks at him somewhat puzzedly, he says, “I’m serious, if you’ve never been up in a hot-air balloon you’ve never lived.”
19. - Balcony
Once, when they were very drunk, she taught him that the best way to tell the future is to throw one-hundred cubits off a balcony: if the majority is heads, you’ll have good luck; tails, bad.
20. - Bane
“Lords,” he says to no one in particular, walking at the fastest pace that could still be called a walk and just barely keeping up at her heels, “Starbuck is going to be the death of me.”
21. - Quiet
“Lee Adama,” she growls, shaking a menacing index finger in his general direction, fumbling with the ever-sticky doorknob, “you’re not setting one foot in my apartment until you can shut the frak up about how much you hate your father.”
22. - Quirks
Her face flounders around for a moment (wasn’t he supposed to be dead?) before quirking into a small smile, then a full-blown grin.
23. - Question
“I need to know, Lee,” she says with a persistent (and somewhat apologetic) shrug.
24. - Quarrel
“Why won’t you ever listen to me?” she calls at his retreating back.
25. - Quitting
Her devil-may-care grin usually eggs him to play another hand, but this time he merely throws his cards on the table, pours himself a drink, and lifts it to her, whispering, “I’m not going to win tonight, am I?”
26. - Jump
He sat with Zak at the bottom of the tree (which they watched her climb), and when she jumped down and landed wrong and broke her ankle, poor Adama-younger passed out at the sound of the crack (Kara and Adama-elder immediately laughed until tears ran down their cheeks).
27. - Jester
He wasn’t supposed to hear her praying for the people they’d lost that day (“Especially Jester, my favorite nugget out of that last batch,” she whispers, “and damn me if I can’t remember his real name,”), but he did, and it broke his heart just a little.
28. - Jousting
“Why,” he half-pleadingly groans, gripping her upper arms out of frustration and shaking her a little, “can’t we make it through one frakking day without getting into a fight?”
29. - Jewel
“O,” he laughs as he takes another shot, looking her in the eye and savoring the way he knows how to make her blush (and briefly wondering if quoting this particular passage might be sort of a bad idea at the moment), “she doth teach the torches to burn bright! It seems she hangs upon the cheek of night like a rich jewel in an Ethiope’s ear; beauty too rich for use, for earth too dear!”
30. - Just
She moans involuntarily as his teeth find the spaces between her neck and her collarbone, and when he glances up at her as if to tell her all the reasons why what is happening here is so very wrong, she half-glares at him, saying, “Hey, could you just…”
31. - Smirk
But the thing she misses the very most, she thinks, is his smile (because the best she can get from him these days is the occasional angry smirk).
32. - Sorrow
“Well,” she snapped in a tone that hung in his ears for days afterwards, “I’m sorry, but it’s not my frakking fault that you’re the most self-absorbed, conceited, tight-assed, inconsiderate bastard I’ve ever had the misfortune of knowing, is it?”
33. - Stupidity
They stopped keeping track of their combined kills after 5,000 because it was just too hard to try to tally that high; they stopped keep track of their combined stupid acts after one because it was just too hard to forgive if they didn’t forget.
34. - Serenade
Sometimes in the dead of night she hums old Caprican piano lullabies that used to echo through her house on cool, rainy nights, and she hums for her own comfort but is also aware that every pilot in the bunkroom is also comforted, and it always makes him smile as tears spring to the eyes of the home-sick nuggets.
35. - Sarcasm
He would talk to her sometime if she would ever let down that damn sarcastic façade of hers, and the worst part is that he isn’t aware that she feels the same way.
36. - Sordid
He has never lusted for anyone in quite the fashion that he lusts after her, and it scares him more than just a little how truly sordid that lust is.
37. - Soliloquy
Late, late at night, she goes running, and as she does, she recites verses in her head, the rhythm of the poetry falling in sync with the rhythm of her steps: “Those who have crossed with direct eyes, to death’s other kingdom, remember us -- if at all -- not as lost violent souls, but only as the hollow men, the stuffed men.”
38. - Sojourn
He once asked her to have lunch with him on Cloud Nine as a small sojourn into normalcy, but she just laughed in his face and told him very matter-of-factly that normal was the last thing she ever wanted to be.
39. - Share
“Care to share, Sir?” she drawls as he tries to hide his grin behind feigned shock and disgust.
40. - Solitary
He stares into his coffee cup as if it is an oracle.
41. - Nowhere
And, when he asked her where they were going, she looked at him and said, “Nowhere, obviously,” and that was quite alright with him, if you wanted to get right down to the truth.
42. - Neutral
She asks him if she should wear her hair up or down in the wedding, and Lee, knowing that his little brother likes it up, says so, and professes his own opinion to be one of neutrality, but they both know he likes it down better because every time she puts it up he always ends up teasing it down and around his fingers.
43. - Nuance
The small thing that flashes through her eyes right before she hits him tells him that she isn’t really as mad as her fists say she is, and that maybe, in another life, she would have talked to him with her voice instead of her fists, but this is war and she doesn’t have time for getting all touchy-feely whenever she wants (needs) to, so she hits him, and he doesn’t mind the black eye in the morning because he knows her nuances better than he knows himself.
44. - Near
He has always been damn near perfect at just about everything he ever tried to do, but that .001 margin of error, that ‘damn near’ prefix to the ‘perfect,’ is what has always gotten him good and frakked.
45. - Natural
He likes his women sort of rugged and natural (though he’s never actually admitted it to anyone but himself), and he likes to think that the only reason she doesn’t wear makeup for him is because she’s always hated it and she doesn’t have any, but she used to wear it all the time for Zak, and she manages to scrounge up a little now and then for Sam, and Lee honestly isn’t sure how he feels about all of it.
46. - Horizon
She knows the answer before she even has to ask -- he misses the still moments just before sunrise the very most.
47. - Valiant
Everyone on the ship knows that the bigger the problem there is between them, the longer they stay in the gym, hitting the hell out of one another until it gets worked out (and the one who wins the sparring match is usually the one who didn’t start the problem).
48. - Virtuous
She was never righteous, but she was never a sinner, either.
49. - Victory
She lays down full colors and is too tired to laugh about it, so he picks up the slack and laughs for her.
50. - Defeat
They are both very broken and all she can manage is to whisper, “This is how the world ends, Lee,” and they both smile (even though it hurts so frakking much to move) when he answers back, “Not with a bang but with a whimper, Kara,” and that’s how she dies, with a grin on her face in his arms.