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Title: Unititled
Author:indigo_umbra
Fandom: Yugioh [domino_effect_ version]
Pairing: Duke Devlin and Jai’son Bakura
Character Focus: Jai' Bakura
Partnered With: raindrop_jewel
Theme Set: 003
Disclaimer: I own nothing of Yugioh, even if I do take huge liberties with the persona of Yami Bakura. The Yugioh series and character concepts belong to Shueisha, Konami, 4 Kids Entertainment, Kazuki Takahashi…I’m probably forgetting something, but that’s a start.
Rating: R-ish
Warnings and Notes: m/m, mild sexual themes, language, and mention of violence.
1.Lonesome
He gets so lonely, Duke, in the middle of a crowd being the center of attention I’ve seen how miserable he can be trying to make them like him.
2.Forgive
I want to strangle him sometimes for trying to say how he’s sorry for every little thing, one day he might figure out that mistakes make him more of a person.
3.Nervous
No excuses for the fact that I get nervous around people but as much as he loves to be in a crowd he never expects me to when it gets too intense to deal with.
4.Eliminate
He doesn’t think I would really hurt anybody, but one chance at catching that stalking bastard that went after him before and I’d prove his good faith wrong with the edge of my pocketknife.
5.Addict
Trading out vices; drugs for cigarettes, cigarettes for alcohol, and now he’s next on my list even if I really am going to miss drinking.
6.Beach
I never should have come back to the city after the wedding, but it would have just given him an excuse to come looking for me.
7.Run
For my part I don’t deserve to be around him either, but I couldn’t fathom turning him away when he runs to me even if I want so badly for him to not need to anymore.
8.Wake
Drives me crazy when he drags me out of bed before noon, one day I’ll convince him to just stay there with me instead.
9.Stomach
It’s impossible to think back on the day in that attic when I really saw what he was for the first time without getting that sinking feeling in my guts, the sensation even worse when I remember why I was so thrilled to discover that secret at first.
10.Force
I tried to force myself to adjust to his presence too much in the beginning until he forced me to finally see instead that it if I just relaxed it was easy to really accept him and be accepted.
11.Coercion
It’s funny how ‘you owe me for this’ gets forgotten more often than not by both of us, maybe I’m getting as easy to distract as he is.
12.Rise
I’m guilty of waking up at odd hours and dragging myself up when he’s sleeping beside me just to lift my hand to press against the curve of his shoulder just to make sure that he really is still there.
13.Mercy
I almost wish I could be as human as he is, and I wish I could yell at him for hurting himself by being that way.
14.Skin
I’m addicted; the feel of his skin is numbing but the taste of it is intoxication.
15.Bubble
I’ve seen him wander off into his own world a few times, wrapped up in some idea that feels safe, it’s almost comical the helplessly naive look he has in those moments.
16.Fickle
He can deny it all he wants, he’s as finicky and fickle as any cat I’ve ever met, and just as easy to make purr if you know the right spot.
17.Bleeding
He bled in the past for someone who wanted to use his power, but never again, the only reason he ever bleeds now is when he wants to and only for me.
18.Curse
It never will be fair, what was given to him through the selfish desires of his father, but watching him grow stronger in spite of his fear makes me think it almost worthwhile.
19.Haircut
He may disagree or complain about it, I don’t care, I still think he looks so much better with his hair shorter.
20.Grim
There have been a few times that I figured we were near enough to done for but either luck likes us or we’re offsetting each other’s bad karma enough to get by with it.
21.Flight
Sneaking back out of the way to usher him more into the spotlight instead is sometimes the only way I can avoid that flight impulse around people, he’s my safety net against the rest of the world even if he doesn’t realize it.
22.Crawl
I’ll be damned if I ever crawl for somebody else, and twice as damned if I ever let anybody make him think he has to.
23.Grin
When he grins that certain way that just screams that he has some demented idea in mind I’m reminded that he’s just as strange as me and that’s insanely reassuring.
24.Long hours
A few minutes listening to his voice on the phone makes me forget the fact that I still have hours of work left before I can go home.
25.Mute
I don’t talk; he never stops, so it all balances out just fine.
26.Memorable
The first time I saw him I knew he was a superficial idiot, and he still is, but at least now he lets me see what else he is beyond just that.
27.Graveyard
The nightmares are something I’ve never let him witness, those empty places where my memories go to die and haunt me whispering just how damned my soul is, because he’d only want to try to fix what nobody really can.
28.Walk
I’ve never seen him walk slowly or pause for longer than an instant but that’s fine with me because that way I get to linger behind under the guise of being leisurely and watch him move.
29.Complicated
Nobody else would understand how thin the lines are; how he can be my best friend, advisor, and lover without us being ‘together’, but he gets it and that’s all that matters.
30.Black out
One night I want to rip the fuse box right out of his apartment and spend the night making him forget what it’s like to need the daylight.
31.Corrupt
If given the chance the world he’s standing at the edge of would change him for the worse, give him real power but steal that hopelessly innocent outlook he has, that’s why I’m never too far away to play guide as he stumbles.
32.Administer
He gets annoyed at me sometimes for telling him flat out that he’s being childish or stubborn and for being the one who pushes that at him, but if he also expects honesty then it has to be absolute and without minced words to take the sting out.
33.Drama
One more threat of being banned to that couch and I might just burn it while he’s asleep.
34.Passage
He honestly is just like a kid at times; eager and more hypnotized by life than I could ever manage, stuck right in the middle of looking for those rites of passage he expects to explain everything for him.
35.Loyal
They don’t appreciate his loyalty in any facet, they’d stand there and tell him to his face that they’re too busy for him and in the next breath call him little more than a whore as if he should be used to hearing it, they don’t deserve to even be near him anymore with the ways they’ve betrayed his trust.
36.Sand
The sand tracked across my apartment floor helped me to see that I was just fighting myself and trying to distance from the moments I wanted to hold close instead.
37.Bath
Yes, I’m still annoyed that he moves things around in his shower; I think he does it on purpose just to see if I can guess what’s out of place.
38.Miracle
It’s a miracle plain and simple that I don’t murder him for half the times he’s frustrated me but he’s right to be smug about the fact that he knows I couldn’t hurt him, because I really can’t.
39.Dropout
One day one of us will be suddenly gone, wandered off or get pulled away by life, he refuses that truth but it only makes me more intent to feel as much of what being with him has to offer for as long as I’m allowed to.
40.Stink
I hate that disgusting strawberry shampoo and all the vile traces it leaves against his skin because it covers up the rest of his scent.
41.Limited
I’m only human, flawed, I can’t be everything he probably thinks I am and I can’t expect him to be anything more than the best and worst he’s shown me
42.Finger
I’d love to thank his Tantrica sometime for showing him all the right ways to drive that weary ache out of my shoulders with the slide of his fingers against those scars and buried metal pins.
43.Intelligence
Anyone who claims a person can’t be smart and attractive clearly has never gotten into an argument with Duke.
44.Behind
We’re both hiding from the world, neither of us can really be honest anymore because I don’t think we remember how, but at least now it’s not so lonely slinking around behind those walls.
45.Sinful
He excels at distracting my thoughts and reducing my coherent thoughts back to those hazy waves of lust whenever he wants to, but I can’t honestly bring myself to care if the rest of the world is bothered by it or not.
46.Caught
He’s so hilariously worried about being caught, mortified over the very thought of it, but I fail to see the reason why it’s that much of a big deal.
47.Want
I’m actually glad I got over my stubborn pride and admitted I wanted him that one night at that ridiculous nightclub; it’s almost fitting how everything begins with lust.
48.Obvious
Frankly I’m almost glad that his friends seem to be so dense or at least have the decent nature to pretend that they are.
49.Plan
It’d hurt too much to tell him that all these plans he has for us scare me when I think about how bad I am at being there for people, I can’t face down disappointing him with that yet so I avoid the conversation.
50.Ashamed
If he ever finds out what my real motives were in the beginning of discovering his power I hope he never forgives me for wanting to use him that way, I don’t deserve anything less than to be condemned for it.
Author:indigo_umbra
Fandom: Yugioh [domino_effect_ version]
Pairing: Duke Devlin and Jai’son Bakura
Character Focus: Jai' Bakura
Partnered With: raindrop_jewel
Theme Set: 003
Disclaimer: I own nothing of Yugioh, even if I do take huge liberties with the persona of Yami Bakura. The Yugioh series and character concepts belong to Shueisha, Konami, 4 Kids Entertainment, Kazuki Takahashi…I’m probably forgetting something, but that’s a start.
Rating: R-ish
Warnings and Notes: m/m, mild sexual themes, language, and mention of violence.
1.Lonesome
He gets so lonely, Duke, in the middle of a crowd being the center of attention I’ve seen how miserable he can be trying to make them like him.
2.Forgive
I want to strangle him sometimes for trying to say how he’s sorry for every little thing, one day he might figure out that mistakes make him more of a person.
3.Nervous
No excuses for the fact that I get nervous around people but as much as he loves to be in a crowd he never expects me to when it gets too intense to deal with.
4.Eliminate
He doesn’t think I would really hurt anybody, but one chance at catching that stalking bastard that went after him before and I’d prove his good faith wrong with the edge of my pocketknife.
5.Addict
Trading out vices; drugs for cigarettes, cigarettes for alcohol, and now he’s next on my list even if I really am going to miss drinking.
6.Beach
I never should have come back to the city after the wedding, but it would have just given him an excuse to come looking for me.
7.Run
For my part I don’t deserve to be around him either, but I couldn’t fathom turning him away when he runs to me even if I want so badly for him to not need to anymore.
8.Wake
Drives me crazy when he drags me out of bed before noon, one day I’ll convince him to just stay there with me instead.
9.Stomach
It’s impossible to think back on the day in that attic when I really saw what he was for the first time without getting that sinking feeling in my guts, the sensation even worse when I remember why I was so thrilled to discover that secret at first.
10.Force
I tried to force myself to adjust to his presence too much in the beginning until he forced me to finally see instead that it if I just relaxed it was easy to really accept him and be accepted.
11.Coercion
It’s funny how ‘you owe me for this’ gets forgotten more often than not by both of us, maybe I’m getting as easy to distract as he is.
12.Rise
I’m guilty of waking up at odd hours and dragging myself up when he’s sleeping beside me just to lift my hand to press against the curve of his shoulder just to make sure that he really is still there.
13.Mercy
I almost wish I could be as human as he is, and I wish I could yell at him for hurting himself by being that way.
14.Skin
I’m addicted; the feel of his skin is numbing but the taste of it is intoxication.
15.Bubble
I’ve seen him wander off into his own world a few times, wrapped up in some idea that feels safe, it’s almost comical the helplessly naive look he has in those moments.
16.Fickle
He can deny it all he wants, he’s as finicky and fickle as any cat I’ve ever met, and just as easy to make purr if you know the right spot.
17.Bleeding
He bled in the past for someone who wanted to use his power, but never again, the only reason he ever bleeds now is when he wants to and only for me.
18.Curse
It never will be fair, what was given to him through the selfish desires of his father, but watching him grow stronger in spite of his fear makes me think it almost worthwhile.
19.Haircut
He may disagree or complain about it, I don’t care, I still think he looks so much better with his hair shorter.
20.Grim
There have been a few times that I figured we were near enough to done for but either luck likes us or we’re offsetting each other’s bad karma enough to get by with it.
21.Flight
Sneaking back out of the way to usher him more into the spotlight instead is sometimes the only way I can avoid that flight impulse around people, he’s my safety net against the rest of the world even if he doesn’t realize it.
22.Crawl
I’ll be damned if I ever crawl for somebody else, and twice as damned if I ever let anybody make him think he has to.
23.Grin
When he grins that certain way that just screams that he has some demented idea in mind I’m reminded that he’s just as strange as me and that’s insanely reassuring.
24.Long hours
A few minutes listening to his voice on the phone makes me forget the fact that I still have hours of work left before I can go home.
25.Mute
I don’t talk; he never stops, so it all balances out just fine.
26.Memorable
The first time I saw him I knew he was a superficial idiot, and he still is, but at least now he lets me see what else he is beyond just that.
27.Graveyard
The nightmares are something I’ve never let him witness, those empty places where my memories go to die and haunt me whispering just how damned my soul is, because he’d only want to try to fix what nobody really can.
28.Walk
I’ve never seen him walk slowly or pause for longer than an instant but that’s fine with me because that way I get to linger behind under the guise of being leisurely and watch him move.
29.Complicated
Nobody else would understand how thin the lines are; how he can be my best friend, advisor, and lover without us being ‘together’, but he gets it and that’s all that matters.
30.Black out
One night I want to rip the fuse box right out of his apartment and spend the night making him forget what it’s like to need the daylight.
31.Corrupt
If given the chance the world he’s standing at the edge of would change him for the worse, give him real power but steal that hopelessly innocent outlook he has, that’s why I’m never too far away to play guide as he stumbles.
32.Administer
He gets annoyed at me sometimes for telling him flat out that he’s being childish or stubborn and for being the one who pushes that at him, but if he also expects honesty then it has to be absolute and without minced words to take the sting out.
33.Drama
One more threat of being banned to that couch and I might just burn it while he’s asleep.
34.Passage
He honestly is just like a kid at times; eager and more hypnotized by life than I could ever manage, stuck right in the middle of looking for those rites of passage he expects to explain everything for him.
35.Loyal
They don’t appreciate his loyalty in any facet, they’d stand there and tell him to his face that they’re too busy for him and in the next breath call him little more than a whore as if he should be used to hearing it, they don’t deserve to even be near him anymore with the ways they’ve betrayed his trust.
36.Sand
The sand tracked across my apartment floor helped me to see that I was just fighting myself and trying to distance from the moments I wanted to hold close instead.
37.Bath
Yes, I’m still annoyed that he moves things around in his shower; I think he does it on purpose just to see if I can guess what’s out of place.
38.Miracle
It’s a miracle plain and simple that I don’t murder him for half the times he’s frustrated me but he’s right to be smug about the fact that he knows I couldn’t hurt him, because I really can’t.
39.Dropout
One day one of us will be suddenly gone, wandered off or get pulled away by life, he refuses that truth but it only makes me more intent to feel as much of what being with him has to offer for as long as I’m allowed to.
40.Stink
I hate that disgusting strawberry shampoo and all the vile traces it leaves against his skin because it covers up the rest of his scent.
41.Limited
I’m only human, flawed, I can’t be everything he probably thinks I am and I can’t expect him to be anything more than the best and worst he’s shown me
42.Finger
I’d love to thank his Tantrica sometime for showing him all the right ways to drive that weary ache out of my shoulders with the slide of his fingers against those scars and buried metal pins.
43.Intelligence
Anyone who claims a person can’t be smart and attractive clearly has never gotten into an argument with Duke.
44.Behind
We’re both hiding from the world, neither of us can really be honest anymore because I don’t think we remember how, but at least now it’s not so lonely slinking around behind those walls.
45.Sinful
He excels at distracting my thoughts and reducing my coherent thoughts back to those hazy waves of lust whenever he wants to, but I can’t honestly bring myself to care if the rest of the world is bothered by it or not.
46.Caught
He’s so hilariously worried about being caught, mortified over the very thought of it, but I fail to see the reason why it’s that much of a big deal.
47.Want
I’m actually glad I got over my stubborn pride and admitted I wanted him that one night at that ridiculous nightclub; it’s almost fitting how everything begins with lust.
48.Obvious
Frankly I’m almost glad that his friends seem to be so dense or at least have the decent nature to pretend that they are.
49.Plan
It’d hurt too much to tell him that all these plans he has for us scare me when I think about how bad I am at being there for people, I can’t face down disappointing him with that yet so I avoid the conversation.
50.Ashamed
If he ever finds out what my real motives were in the beginning of discovering his power I hope he never forgives me for wanting to use him that way, I don’t deserve anything less than to be condemned for it.