So life...
...is amazing. In all honesty, I couldn't ask for a better life right now. I can honestly say that I am truly happy with everything that's going on. Honestly, I have the best friends anyone could ever ask for..and I've been talking to someone lately, who makes me feel..well beautiful and valuble...and he makes me feel like I mean something.
No one has ever made me feel this way before. I love my ex don't get me wrong. But like, I don't know. We just aren't supposed to be together right now...and maybe not ever. I can accept that. But right now I've found someone who likes me, and REALLY wants to be with me. He's willing to talk to my parents and be like "Mr. and Mrs. Smith...I really like your daughter...and with all due respect I was wondering if I could have your permission to date her." No one and I repeat NO ONE has ever had the balls to do that. Not with my parents. This kid is willing to do what it takes..if my parents say no...he's willing to wait for me. He said that too. And that's what I want. I want someone like him...who will be completely sweet to me all the time...who will treat me like a princess..who will give me flowers for no apparent reason, who will take me for walks on the beach at night. Who will make me a nice dinner in...and watch a chick flick with me. Someone who will hold me when my world feels like it's about to crumble into a million and one pieces. Someone who's always going to be there for me...someone that I can talk to until really late on the phone...about just whatever pop's into my head. Someone who will ask ME to do things...and ask ME to go places with him...instead of me having to ask to do things with him.
I honestly think that this guy will do that for me. I really do. I hope he can catch...because I weigh alot and I'm sure falling fast. hah hah. He's amazing. Seriously. He just needs to come home. I miss him alot...and with him so far away...It makes me want to cry sometimes...knowing that...he's not close...but he's close to coming home. Which is better than him not coming home at all...I really hope this works.
♥
More later? Maybe.
No one has ever made me feel this way before. I love my ex don't get me wrong. But like, I don't know. We just aren't supposed to be together right now...and maybe not ever. I can accept that. But right now I've found someone who likes me, and REALLY wants to be with me. He's willing to talk to my parents and be like "Mr. and Mrs. Smith...I really like your daughter...and with all due respect I was wondering if I could have your permission to date her." No one and I repeat NO ONE has ever had the balls to do that. Not with my parents. This kid is willing to do what it takes..if my parents say no...he's willing to wait for me. He said that too. And that's what I want. I want someone like him...who will be completely sweet to me all the time...who will treat me like a princess..who will give me flowers for no apparent reason, who will take me for walks on the beach at night. Who will make me a nice dinner in...and watch a chick flick with me. Someone who will hold me when my world feels like it's about to crumble into a million and one pieces. Someone who's always going to be there for me...someone that I can talk to until really late on the phone...about just whatever pop's into my head. Someone who will ask ME to do things...and ask ME to go places with him...instead of me having to ask to do things with him.
I honestly think that this guy will do that for me. I really do. I hope he can catch...because I weigh alot and I'm sure falling fast. hah hah. He's amazing. Seriously. He just needs to come home. I miss him alot...and with him so far away...It makes me want to cry sometimes...knowing that...he's not close...but he's close to coming home. Which is better than him not coming home at all...I really hope this works.
♥
More later? Maybe.