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Jul 01, 2009 01:02

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vash_9986 July 1 2009, 06:09:09 UTC
i completely have thought what you do why do i sometimes have to feel this when i dont want to feel it? why is it that i feel pain in my when others are just freely enjoying their like while im miserably here hiding behind crying my pain away? what did i do for the person i loved and cherished and wouldevd given my life for leave me? did i do seomthing wrong? is something wrong with me? feelings of self doubt..hate for the other..and then also depression for the loss of the one you loved...

i think God gave us these emotions to understand each other and what we are going through. if we didnt knows then we wouldnt be able to understanble each other 100%. say you know when your friend is crying couse you see tears coming down her eyes if we didnt have emotions, et..you wouldnt know and there for your friend would go through pain without noone knowing right? [or vice versa]

and as for you not being able to forget you ex-b/f its completely natural for someone who loved another have feelings after the relationship is over. i am married at 23 but i fell in love with a previous person before my husband and he lives in the same town as my mother and eveytime i bump into him in stores [if im at my mothers house] my heart will beat a little stronger or my face will get flushed and ive been married for 3years this july and this december it will be 4year that we have been together [me and my husband] so what im trying to tell you is that no matter how much time has passed their will always be a little bit of those feelings but its up to you if you want to try and look for another person to erase the memories you two had and create new ones...

hugs x kisses
Fabby

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1on31y24 July 1 2009, 06:48:43 UTC
Thank you fabby san. It's just that sometimes I get so sick of being so emotional all the time. I see people moving on with their lives and achieving things, yet here I am stuck at this standstill, and my life doesn't want to move any further. It's kinda stupid to think that, but for some reason I can't think past that. So that's why I was venting out my frustrations, because I am so tired of being in the stand still. Sometimes you know I feel older than 20. I feel like I am already 80 years old, and it really scares me. I don't want to feel old, I want to feel young again. I'm sorry if any of my ramblings hurt your feelings or made you uncomfortable. I was just venting my inner frustrations out in the world, and kinda forgot to lock it so that only I can see it. But thank you so much for your feedback, trust me it's highly appreciated. *hugs you tight*

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vash_9986 July 1 2009, 07:06:16 UTC
There are things in life that always seem unfair trust me.. i feel that way also and it sucks big time! i hate it..i have been critized and bad mouthed so many times i cant even remember and it has in the past it prevented me from moving on with life and doing things for me and only me [you know what i mean?]

i think its best to vent out what you think by writting them out or talking about them than do other wise! if you felt better by writting what you felt and how your feeling its better to get that brick off your shoulder and just go "agh!" people need either personal journals or something sometimes to write what they feel and what they went through that day because of how strongly their emotions are.

you didnt hurt my feelings in any way dont worry! but just know if theres anything i can ever do you can come to me! i have been through so much crap in my life you wouldnt even believe it. seriously! if i sat down with you and told you im sure you would probably be like ok this woman is lying ^_^ but unfortunatly my life hasnt been a pleasant one until i met my husband thats when things turned for me.. so i hope things will give a turn for the better for you also >_

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1on31y24 July 8 2009, 04:47:35 UTC
Ok time to whine to you...I got three words for that. I. Hate. School. *bangs head against desk* help meeee........T____T

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vash_9986 July 11 2009, 08:54:25 UTC
^_^ what are you majoring in? im sure it could be a pain in the butt!...i barely saw this lol your gonna have to send me a message i hardly ever read my mail! *sorry*

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