Mom
I can't take this pressure anymore. I am going to go insane.
My mom is really sick, everyone knows this already... but I don't really know what to do. I really want to be there for her, but she wont let anyone and that is stressing me out. Half of me wants to go into hiding until I am ready to come out. I don't want to talk or be around anyone, I just want to sit in a dark room and cry for like a week. The other part of me wants more than anything for everyone to understand. I am having so many mood swings and the PMS isnt helping. I just want my "friends" to call me and ask me how she is, and just let me know they care. Instead, when I need more than anything to talk, they're too busy not picking up the phone because "the fiance would yell". I just need to talk, I need a friend, one that I don't live with because I already talk to him enough and he's mad at me because I burden him too much. I wish I knew where to go right now. If I were still in Stratford, I would go to "the rocks" the hide out next to the Housitonic River and I would stand there and scream at the top of my lungs... now I'm up here and I just don't know where to go. any place around ehre someone would hear me and call the cops or something.
My mom is really sick, everyone knows this already... but I don't really know what to do. I really want to be there for her, but she wont let anyone and that is stressing me out. Half of me wants to go into hiding until I am ready to come out. I don't want to talk or be around anyone, I just want to sit in a dark room and cry for like a week. The other part of me wants more than anything for everyone to understand. I am having so many mood swings and the PMS isnt helping. I just want my "friends" to call me and ask me how she is, and just let me know they care. Instead, when I need more than anything to talk, they're too busy not picking up the phone because "the fiance would yell". I just need to talk, I need a friend, one that I don't live with because I already talk to him enough and he's mad at me because I burden him too much. I wish I knew where to go right now. If I were still in Stratford, I would go to "the rocks" the hide out next to the Housitonic River and I would stand there and scream at the top of my lungs... now I'm up here and I just don't know where to go. any place around ehre someone would hear me and call the cops or something.