nothing
i hate when i get this feeling.
when i feel so disconnected and apart from all of my friends
even today, when i was hanging out with steven, nico and thuyvi...i felt so detatched
everyone was talking and taking part in conversation except for me
same thing happened yesterday when i was lunching with denise and taylor sole
they were talking about college and frat parties and stuff and of course i don't know shit about either
so i kept quiet
basically what i'm saying is i feel as if i don't relate to any of my friends anymore for some reason
and, i know i know i KNOW this isn't true, but it FEELS like my friends are either
getting sick of me
or just don't like me all too much anymore
WTF, why am i thinking these thoughts when i KNOW they aren't true?
i'm psycho. for serious.
this feeling always passes and things go back to normal but
right now i hate it.
i get it all the time too, which is a million times worse because i turn into emosexual avo.
YES, emosexual avo. don't question it.
i am an overreacter. i read through my old entries and i realized, geeze, i'm so sensitive and i
well
overreact!
whatever, get over it, avo. [i am.]
my new year's resolution is going to be to grow the FUCK up.
for serious.
and not let small and simple things get me down.
if i can accomplish that, i will be a million times happier.
and in other news
something that should get anyone interested in my [non-existant] love life excited:
i'm over him.
seriously. and i even started to think i liked a certain friend of mine, but i decided...wait, that's way too weird.
so, to sum up...
i'm not interested in anyone anymore. =]
PS i'm not doing a christmas entry until saturday or after, because i get more presents then. hokay.
when i feel so disconnected and apart from all of my friends
even today, when i was hanging out with steven, nico and thuyvi...i felt so detatched
everyone was talking and taking part in conversation except for me
same thing happened yesterday when i was lunching with denise and taylor sole
they were talking about college and frat parties and stuff and of course i don't know shit about either
so i kept quiet
basically what i'm saying is i feel as if i don't relate to any of my friends anymore for some reason
and, i know i know i KNOW this isn't true, but it FEELS like my friends are either
getting sick of me
or just don't like me all too much anymore
WTF, why am i thinking these thoughts when i KNOW they aren't true?
i'm psycho. for serious.
this feeling always passes and things go back to normal but
right now i hate it.
i get it all the time too, which is a million times worse because i turn into emosexual avo.
YES, emosexual avo. don't question it.
i am an overreacter. i read through my old entries and i realized, geeze, i'm so sensitive and i
well
overreact!
whatever, get over it, avo. [i am.]
my new year's resolution is going to be to grow the FUCK up.
for serious.
and not let small and simple things get me down.
if i can accomplish that, i will be a million times happier.
and in other news
something that should get anyone interested in my [non-existant] love life excited:
i'm over him.
seriously. and i even started to think i liked a certain friend of mine, but i decided...wait, that's way too weird.
so, to sum up...
i'm not interested in anyone anymore. =]
PS i'm not doing a christmas entry until saturday or after, because i get more presents then. hokay.