I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS
Hey. Long time no see. Okay, I'll get to the point. Because it'll get rambly as I go on. (Don't say I didn't warn you.)
So, as some of my Twitter followers know (@jadenmd if you're unaware #shamelessselfpromotion), this was supposed to be done in Twitter, but when I started writing it down - because I wanted to plan out the character count - IT TURNED OUT TO BE IMPOSSIBLE. You'll realize why in a second.
First, a preface:
I decided to watch the 20th anniversary concert again last Thursday (November 3), because I was randomly listening to V6 in the car and wondered, "Hey, I should watch that concert again because it's been a while" without realizing it was a way of celebrating the guys' 21st anniversary AND that time I watched the concert a year ago. (I realized all of this only when I was in the middle of watching.)
LITTLE DID I KNOW. I was in for one hell of a ride at an inevitable roller coaster of emotions that is V6.
And the highlight? I did something I haven't done for as long as I can remember: I CRIED. THREE TIMES. As a fangirl, I've always said, "im cri" or other variations as a joke online, but I don't remember ever actually crying this hard in a long time. V6 have done me in in the past (Remember Go in Thailand? Yup), but never in the last year or so. And I never cry during concert-viewings because I'm always with someone, but that night, my dad, who sets up everything for me and usually watches with me, decided to sleep early, leaving me alone with my emotions. XD
This happened during KimiKimi (dat a capella singing tho) because I was so overwhelmed with pride and amazement at what V6 can and has done over the years. ;A; ♥ Then Timeless played and that song already made me so emotional last year that I couldn't play the song WEEKS after the concert, so unsurprisingly there was even more crying from me. And then I possibly cried again during Dasenai Tegami, not only because I am in love with that song sfm and I always get emotional anyway when that song plays, but also because it tied up so nicely during the 39 Symphony along with the Thank You's and whatnot of the guys and I was like: ;3; Why do you do dis V6.
Speaking of 39 Symphony, can we talk about how the arrangement of every single V6 has ever done was perfectly executed? If I didn't know these songs well I wouldn't have known the difference in-between transitions. I'm just, still in awe at that. *A*
And then Break The Wall happened, which is one of my most favorite performances of V6 ever and truly convinced me that V6 are undoubtedly great dancers collectively, and while that always impressed me, I had a thought suddenly realized in the back of my mind: V6 concerts are never, ever grand and over-the-top, and they always make sure it is never that. I feel like this has been a preference for them, because that's the kind of guys they are: Simple, never over-the-top. Not saying that being grand is not good nor being simple is always great, but it only goes to show how V6 wants to be seen in their concerts - raw and simplified. That's how they and their talents shine the most. And as a fan, I am more than okay with that.
While I'm at it, can I just ramble on the members, please? I haven't done this in long written form for V6 in detail, because Twitter exists and no one looks at LJ or other blogs anymore (I'd done this for Arashi before I had an ichiban) but like, it always amazes me how they are who they are and they do what they do, as individuals and as V6. I'm just, okay? ;A;
Maa-kun for example. Charms overflowing from my screen aside, the anniversary concert shows how much he has changed over the years (i.e. he mellowed out), but not his heart towards V6. You can see how this anniversary means so much to him in particular. Also, he handsome af irl and I can't ;A; ♥
Nagano Hiroshi is as princely as ever, but he is also forever the sweetest human being on this planet (and maybe even beyond! XD). Even this concert alone confirmed that observation for me. Also, fun fact: I've always had a different bias towards him because we're too much alike in our personalities, and I always understood his point of view no matter what the other members told him. XD Ah, Hiroshi ♥
(I'm skipping to Go for obvious reasons...)
Go may be quiet, reserved and shy, more so when he's on his own, but V6 has always been his solace where he can be who he is and the guys won't mock him or judge him for it. Like, if he's with a different set of people he has the tendency to pull back, but because V6 is his "home", he always feels so comfortable to make jokes and laugh at everything, no matter how dumb. XD ♥
Ken is just TOO HANDSOME for my life especially in this concert, omg I can't and seralambert will back me up on this, because Ken isn't our favorite but OMG HE WAS JUST TOO HANDSOME LIKE WHERE WAS THIS MIYAKE KEN WE KNOW AND SEE ON TV WHO'S ALWAYS CUTE AND HILARIOUSLY FRANK??? I felt like the Ken we saw live was a totally different person because he was not adorable, he was impossibly handsome. *A* How does a man like that exist??? TELL ME.
...seriously though, while he's always too shy to say it, Ken loves V6 and their fans a lot. Actions speak louder than words, yo. ♥
Okada, well, he may forever be an oddball, but he is my spirit animal he is V6's oddball and despite his success, he knows he owes V6 a lot of it - not in a negative way, of course - both because he started there with them and because they allowed him to gain success in his own way (as they have, too!), and look at him now. *_* ♥
*sighs*
Inocchi, man, I could go on FOREVER about him, so I'll just focus on what he said during the Thank You's, particularly about uchiwas. I just. If I understood him correctly, whenever he sees those uchiwas, he imagines the effort that was done in every single one of them (and makes a joke about cutters and stuff, because he's Inocchi XD ♥), so he tries to read and do all of the requests written on them as much as he can. And the reaction he gets when he fulfills those requests - like waving or doing a peace sign - makes him just as happy. Like, it's not only the fact that the fans made something for him, it's also the fact that he did something back and he got an reaction because of it that makes him happy that gets to me the most. It's obviously a two-way street for him and I just. I can't. ;A;
I'm done. At that part, at least. XD BECAUSE THE RIBBONS. They clearly did not know how to react because they were genuinely surprised that the staff and the fans were able to do this without them knowing anything about this at all. (Fans did a great job of not leaking anything to social media, btw. XDb) I could see a few teary-eyed members and ugh, there were just so many great feelings all around. The selfie, the rolling around, the group hugs, ahhhh this group. *A*
Arashi being there was cherry-on-top, so to speak. :D I'm just a lump of happiness right now. I couldn't be any prouder of them. ;A;
I miss V6 sfm and I want to see them again. Next year, hopefully. *A*
Edited because I am a dumb
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