Alex and Stuff.
ohhh... Christmas. I got some stuff today and more stuff to return. I'm grateful though, I really am. My mom's friend died today. She got in a car accident right outside of the mall on Christmas Eve Eve (2 days ago) and now she's dead. She has 2 sons, 20 and 18 and I feel terrible for them. She was one of those really happy, singing, I-love-Christmas moms. I don't think I could handle that. She was one of my mom's clients and she gave singing lessons which is cute. It hits hard when it's on Christmas and you know the family.
God, that's so sad...
Yesterday I went to church 3 times! kjsadghd! I am very Jesusified. My boyfriend cooked all day today for all of the people coming over to his house because his mom is sick. Isn't that sweet? What 19 year old makes Christmas dinner for his mom? He's too good to be true, and I am feeling MORE than inadequate. He does EVERYTHING. You name it and he rocks at it. He's proactive and hot and a sponsered snowboarder and snowboarding instructor. He's a lifeguard and plays hockey. He got recruited to his second boarding school for Lax. He's neat and clean and has an internship in NYC with Columbia Records this summer. He's very smart and a great writer. His family is stupid wealthy and he has a house in Maryland where he has horses and dirtbikes and one in Sea Island, GA. If you know anything about Sea Island, I think that says enough. His dad hunts in Africa every year and he's worked there for the past 3 years I think it is. His brother is gay and surrounds himself with edgy New Yorkers and original Dali paintings in the city. His mom was a Ralph Lauren model and they get their clothes for free. His dad builds houses on the island, loves to hunt, and is really conservative. ew. Fuck. I could go on forever, seriously, nad I can't help but think of him all the time. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.
College has been full of surprises and I feel bad for the people who don't go away. It's just something completely different, unexplainable, and if you don't go away, you're missing a lot. The friends are the best and there's so much to do and see and be. I haven't read a book since I've been away which is SOOO unlike me. There's jsut 389403564 other things to be doing with 4398760945 other people. I'm going to stop drinking so much. My whole school drinks Wed, Thurs, Fri, Sat at least in a normal week and I have started regretting drinking, normally and what I did that night. Feeling guilty about shit is stupid and partying is cool, for a little. I don't want to make big mistakes. I only have 5 more days in town and too many people that I'm not going to see. Christmas was good this year though, it always is. There was love and presents and family and pictures and food and church so all was well. I am thankful. I can't wait to get back to Elon though. My winter term class that I take for 3 hours everyday for all the January is Drawing with Color and I'm good at drawing so this should be fun. I need to go back and get a job.... very important. I can't be shy and I have to make myself go talk to the people.
This has grown into a massive post. Call me if you want to hang out and I'll probably be around in the next 24 hours for you. Call me if you need me too.
God, that's so sad...
Yesterday I went to church 3 times! kjsadghd! I am very Jesusified. My boyfriend cooked all day today for all of the people coming over to his house because his mom is sick. Isn't that sweet? What 19 year old makes Christmas dinner for his mom? He's too good to be true, and I am feeling MORE than inadequate. He does EVERYTHING. You name it and he rocks at it. He's proactive and hot and a sponsered snowboarder and snowboarding instructor. He's a lifeguard and plays hockey. He got recruited to his second boarding school for Lax. He's neat and clean and has an internship in NYC with Columbia Records this summer. He's very smart and a great writer. His family is stupid wealthy and he has a house in Maryland where he has horses and dirtbikes and one in Sea Island, GA. If you know anything about Sea Island, I think that says enough. His dad hunts in Africa every year and he's worked there for the past 3 years I think it is. His brother is gay and surrounds himself with edgy New Yorkers and original Dali paintings in the city. His mom was a Ralph Lauren model and they get their clothes for free. His dad builds houses on the island, loves to hunt, and is really conservative. ew. Fuck. I could go on forever, seriously, nad I can't help but think of him all the time. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.
College has been full of surprises and I feel bad for the people who don't go away. It's just something completely different, unexplainable, and if you don't go away, you're missing a lot. The friends are the best and there's so much to do and see and be. I haven't read a book since I've been away which is SOOO unlike me. There's jsut 389403564 other things to be doing with 4398760945 other people. I'm going to stop drinking so much. My whole school drinks Wed, Thurs, Fri, Sat at least in a normal week and I have started regretting drinking, normally and what I did that night. Feeling guilty about shit is stupid and partying is cool, for a little. I don't want to make big mistakes. I only have 5 more days in town and too many people that I'm not going to see. Christmas was good this year though, it always is. There was love and presents and family and pictures and food and church so all was well. I am thankful. I can't wait to get back to Elon though. My winter term class that I take for 3 hours everyday for all the January is Drawing with Color and I'm good at drawing so this should be fun. I need to go back and get a job.... very important. I can't be shy and I have to make myself go talk to the people.
This has grown into a massive post. Call me if you want to hang out and I'll probably be around in the next 24 hours for you. Call me if you need me too.