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one month.
Not too bad.
Looking like this kinda makes me want to like myself more.
The way Ricky held my hip bones as he fucked me from behind. He dug his fingers in my bones. Pounding relentlessly. This kid turns me on way too often. All I want to do is be held and kissed by him. I want to tell him I love him. Then sometimes I want to strangle him. Why? I'm just jealous. I'm a jealous freak. He likes me. I know he does. I trust him. I want to trust him so bad. I hate myself. I trust myself though. I don't want to be bad for him. I've turned down so many people already. I miss him right now. He was in my arms 48 hours ago. I need him. I pray that everything will stay good between us. We leave for Florida in less than three weeks. I hope we make it.