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eh....thats how i feel. i wish i felt better, i'm not sick or anything it's just i feel so blah. like i know exactly whats gonna happen tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that and the day after that, predictable down to the last second. things aren't getting better and they aren't getting any worse. i don't feel like i'm living, i'm just existing in this endless stream of predictable events. depression is creeping up and i feel helpless to stop it. i don't know what to do or how to stop it but it feels a lot like last year and i don't like it. i'm going to southern the weekend after next, hopefully that will help me clear my head of this place. i've got a lot to think about but no answers. i feel like screaming "somebody help me" but i don't think anyone has the answers...alright, well thats enough for now.