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so this always happens.
im bored. and fell like writing on livejournal.
but here i am.
and all i want it to go to bed right now
lame.
but tonight was alright.
yeah..
i hope for tuesday. weird
i havent said things like that for months now.
yeah thats another things..
months ago..
i feel like it was just such a waste..
but i hope it wasnt.
i dont really know what to do anymore about him.
we dont talk.
he said that i could be his friend. but he wont make the effort.
friendship is a two way street pal.. sorry
theres a lot going on at once.
then at the same time there isnt.
its kinda weird...
like i dont know what to think about it all.
or what to do.
fairs soon.
aw. im going to miss romeo and mercutio....
they were good pigs.
im getting to lazy with pigs.
i need to knock it off.
umm. this is long. but i dont care.
i dont know what to do. im such a puss.
i need to suck it up and be like.
hey. i like you.
you like me.
lets be together.
am i ready?
eh. no. but....
once in a life time..
kinda..
id ont know what to do anymore.
i keep saying it. but its true.
one guy came in today.
suppper nice.
and he gave me hope.
he was kinda odd, kinda creepy.
but genuinely a nice guy.
and he gave me hope.
ill do what i need to do to have my future come together.
i can be something better than this.
than anyone in my family.
definatly.
im going to do something that helps others.
thats what i want to dedicate my life to.
others. helping others.
that will be amazing.
peace corps.. ahh.
then teach in a ghetto place. that would be rad.
really really rad.
i want to move out of california for a while.
after africa.
and come back and move to like.. chicago?
i dunno.
harlem?
somewhere ghetto.
and tell them.
maybe hopefully inspire them?
inspire one kid. thatd be thee best.
but..............................................
well see how my lifes plan unfolds.
like. if im suppouse to be something else. or do something else than i will.
and if im suppouse to go to africa and get aids from saving some young boy dying in my arm(a senario many people have given me) than im meant to die like that. nothing is going to change it no matter where i am.
yes.
definatly.
welllllllllllllllll.
i guess im done
ive got nothing else......
and im tired beyond...
and i need sleep for some reason.
i could fall asleep right now if i wanted. but i wont.
peace&love.
kayla
im bored. and fell like writing on livejournal.
but here i am.
and all i want it to go to bed right now
lame.
but tonight was alright.
yeah..
i hope for tuesday. weird
i havent said things like that for months now.
yeah thats another things..
months ago..
i feel like it was just such a waste..
but i hope it wasnt.
i dont really know what to do anymore about him.
we dont talk.
he said that i could be his friend. but he wont make the effort.
friendship is a two way street pal.. sorry
theres a lot going on at once.
then at the same time there isnt.
its kinda weird...
like i dont know what to think about it all.
or what to do.
fairs soon.
aw. im going to miss romeo and mercutio....
they were good pigs.
im getting to lazy with pigs.
i need to knock it off.
umm. this is long. but i dont care.
i dont know what to do. im such a puss.
i need to suck it up and be like.
hey. i like you.
you like me.
lets be together.
am i ready?
eh. no. but....
once in a life time..
kinda..
id ont know what to do anymore.
i keep saying it. but its true.
one guy came in today.
suppper nice.
and he gave me hope.
he was kinda odd, kinda creepy.
but genuinely a nice guy.
and he gave me hope.
ill do what i need to do to have my future come together.
i can be something better than this.
than anyone in my family.
definatly.
im going to do something that helps others.
thats what i want to dedicate my life to.
others. helping others.
that will be amazing.
peace corps.. ahh.
then teach in a ghetto place. that would be rad.
really really rad.
i want to move out of california for a while.
after africa.
and come back and move to like.. chicago?
i dunno.
harlem?
somewhere ghetto.
and tell them.
maybe hopefully inspire them?
inspire one kid. thatd be thee best.
but..............................................
well see how my lifes plan unfolds.
like. if im suppouse to be something else. or do something else than i will.
and if im suppouse to go to africa and get aids from saving some young boy dying in my arm(a senario many people have given me) than im meant to die like that. nothing is going to change it no matter where i am.
yes.
definatly.
welllllllllllllllll.
i guess im done
ive got nothing else......
and im tired beyond...
and i need sleep for some reason.
i could fall asleep right now if i wanted. but i wont.
peace&love.
kayla