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i just listened to a song that i havent listened to since the summer.
it reminded me of old times with an old friend.
it made me sad because this old friend hates me and i hate him.
it made me think of my friends now. and how i deal with things. well. how i dont deal with things i should day. i just forget it. i dont think about it really. i need to remember somethings so i dont let history repeat itself. i trust people way to easily. just random people. ill start telling my life story to. i think i do this because thats the only time when i do think about my life. when im talking to a stanger.
but this song reminded me of how easliy things can turn out bad. how quickly things can turn on you. one minute, the next. its scary how people can determine if ill be happy. i know that sounds stupid. why cant i be happy if i want to be. because, if someone says something rude, ill be mad. something nice, ill be happy. something mean, ill be sad. etc. etc.
this old friend reminds me of everything i never want to become. of how people are evil. he reminds me of why i chose to live how i do.
i still dont regret being his friend though. he tought me a lot. he thought me what not to do. how not to be a friend. that was his purpose in my life. and im thankful for that. for him. i guess im coming to a great conclusion. im not mad at him anymore. i dont hate him. im glad we were friends. and he ended up treating me the way he did. he made me a better person for it. thank you andrew.
it reminded me of old times with an old friend.
it made me sad because this old friend hates me and i hate him.
it made me think of my friends now. and how i deal with things. well. how i dont deal with things i should day. i just forget it. i dont think about it really. i need to remember somethings so i dont let history repeat itself. i trust people way to easily. just random people. ill start telling my life story to. i think i do this because thats the only time when i do think about my life. when im talking to a stanger.
but this song reminded me of how easliy things can turn out bad. how quickly things can turn on you. one minute, the next. its scary how people can determine if ill be happy. i know that sounds stupid. why cant i be happy if i want to be. because, if someone says something rude, ill be mad. something nice, ill be happy. something mean, ill be sad. etc. etc.
this old friend reminds me of everything i never want to become. of how people are evil. he reminds me of why i chose to live how i do.
i still dont regret being his friend though. he tought me a lot. he thought me what not to do. how not to be a friend. that was his purpose in my life. and im thankful for that. for him. i guess im coming to a great conclusion. im not mad at him anymore. i dont hate him. im glad we were friends. and he ended up treating me the way he did. he made me a better person for it. thank you andrew.