what do I do now?
what do i do know. i feel that everything i do to make something right only makes it worse. i do this and it makes this happen. why? im only tying to fix things. i just dont know how. i feel like i should just give up. but then again. i dont want to because then im a failure. and i dont want to be a failure, i want to be a success. i feel like nothing i do works. i hear it. and it kills me. and cant do anything about it. i know whats going on. and i cant do anything about it. i know i should. but do i want to risk it? should i tell someone? then she wont ever trust me again. what do i do? im stuck. like always. and i dont know what to fucking do!!! im always trying to solve everyones problems. when i have my own. and i need to focus on me. but i dont. i want someone to tell me what i should do. i feel like i need someone to tell me what to do. but in order to have that person. i need to tell them. and that risks things... so what do i do? just sit here? no. i dont want to. i neeeeeddd to tell someone. and she knows she should. she thinks she shoudnt. but she needs to. she says it isnt a problem. but it is. i keep asking myself what would jesus do? but i need to start asking what should I do?? how do i fix things. how do i make them back to where they used to be? how long has this been going on? to make you feel better? that to me is shit. i dont know. maybe its true. it makes you feel better. but why do you post it all over for whoever to read? you say i do it for the wrong reasons. well so do you. were not that much different. what am i suppouse to do now? now am i suppouse to act? like nothings happening. no. thats shit. im sorry i cant fake it. i cant fake anything anymore. will someone please help me. and tell me what i should do!!!!