lost in my notebook
make it all go away. take it from me all of it. i no longer want this burden rippng at my insides. my heart can not take it anymore. its slowly failing me. i feel myself going deeper and deeper into the dark. i may not be able to come back from this one. this might be the final straw. the final petal has fallen and i am no longer. im gone forever. i was never there to HIM in the first place. i was just so dumb struck to see this. to many new findings have made me see what he truely is. no one knows him in all aspects like i do. even if i am replaced it wont be the same with the new. he wont be the same, i wont be either. we never will again.