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Well, KT and Ben are over. They didn't have that bad of an ending, just kind of a "Okay, we are friends, not really in love anymore. But I still love you as a friend.".....and everything is working out okay for them. So I am happy for those two. I think Mitch and I arn't going to last that long. I mean, we are really loseing it. The emotion isn't there, and he seems uninterested, and it's like we both have to put in this BIG BIG effort in order to continue. I mean, yeah, relationships take effort, I'm not saying it should be a joy ride, but at the same time, you shouldn't have to walk on egg shells around each other and strain yourself. It's really confuseing. I mean I love him. But like KT and Ben, I think I only love him as a close friend. Like I love Aiden,Craig,Kyle,Steve,Rusty,Patric,John,Mike,Mat,Peter,Jason...and all the other boys.
But one thing is kind of bothering me and I am a horrible person to even think this....
But I think I am starting to fall for Ben.
He is such a sweet guy. I always felt comfortable around him. He is the one I go to for anything. He just...ar. I cannot be thinking these thoughts right now. Even though KT and him broke up, he was still her boyfriend. I think I am going to talk to KT about it cause I don't know what else to do. I mean, I'm going to make it clear that I have no intention of dateing him right now. And that I THINK it's only a CRUSH. I dunno. We will see.
As for Mitch. Don't know what I'm going to do with him. School is starting soon. Senior year! HELL YEAH!
But Mitch is really confuseing. I think I'm going to pull away. Honestly...don't think he will be to upset. I really get the vibe that he is wanting an end to this madness too.
So there is this little hidden love square going on...but it's hidden and I think only I can see it.
KT, Ben,
Mitch,Me
(Like my little love square? heh. I don't. It's confuseing.)
~!BECCA!~
Unsaid Goodbys
(Halo friendlies)
Wasn't such a bad time for us,
Cause we were young,
I think about the good times,
Driving under moonlight,
Blue tides and lullabyes,
Do you remember,
Do you?
And I was on the telephone,
Tellin you to come home and settle the score,
Didn't I try and tell you of passing time?
And unsaid goodbyes.
Sitting in the back seat of life,
A joy ride,
We knew we couldn't get bored,
Following our dreams down the path of life,
But we don't know,
What do we do when we get there?
And I was on the 7th floor,
Yelling out the window "Lets settle the score",
Didn't I try and tell you of passing time,
And unsaid goodbyes,
And I was on the telephone,
Saying that I'll be home to settle the score,
Didn't I tell you of passing time?
And unsaid Goodbyes.