Phases of my life-Music
You know I can relate music with phases in my life.
When I hear old country songs, I think of my childhood and growing up with my siblings loving country music. I remember looking up to my oldest brother like he was a country genus. Some songs brings me to tears thinking about how much I love my siblings and how lucky we were to be so close.
Anytime I hear bands like Motely Crue-Poison... I think of being 14 going to atleast 1 concert a month, maybe more. I would go out to bars with older friends and seemed like everyone liked me cuz the bar owners would always let me in too. I remember being crazy about Brett Michaels..ha I KNOW..say what?... I had posters to cover every wall in my room of him and various other glam rockers that I idolized. gah! This all went on til I was 17ish.
Then when I hear songs from say Grateful Dead, The Cure, Linny or Smashin Pumpkins
Hearing this music brings peace to me even for just a few moments, it brings me back to a feeling loved feeling. I think about living on my own in my apartment...Well with friends..guys mainly. I was always better friends with guys. I did have a dear soul sista named Jecca that I lost contact with that used to sing and play guitar, she had the sweetest voice I have ever heard. I don't think I have ever been my truest self around any other female than her, wish I hadn't lost contact with her. We would go to local bars, sit outside with various hippiefied instruments and play. We would travel some, YES I was working but did this on weekends. We even went to a Rainbow Gathering, that was a huge eye opening event for me. It was wild for me to see how these people lived, I could appreciate it and respect them but there is no way I would ever want to live like that.
Then when I hear songs from bands such as Primus, NIN, Tool, Pantera
I think of an Ex of mine. I think of the hours on end that we would sit and talk...ofcourse we were high on speed....which I in noway miss but I do still miss him. We had a cool connection, he needed me and I wanted him. This went on for 5yrs moving from place to place. Even following me to College in Texas. I remember partying with him and my cool college friends, we stayed high constantly. It was so carefree... I wish we could all have seen what HUGE mistakes we were making.
Then atlast when I hear Southern Rock...I think of the fun times what Mike and I had while dating...going out dancing, enjoying each other, loving each other. I think of how that brough him out of his shell.
When I hear Praise and Worship music I think of how lucky I am to have gone thru so many phases in life but now I am back to where I need to be. I am back to praising God and am Thankful for everything I have gone thru.
When I hear old country songs, I think of my childhood and growing up with my siblings loving country music. I remember looking up to my oldest brother like he was a country genus. Some songs brings me to tears thinking about how much I love my siblings and how lucky we were to be so close.
Anytime I hear bands like Motely Crue-Poison... I think of being 14 going to atleast 1 concert a month, maybe more. I would go out to bars with older friends and seemed like everyone liked me cuz the bar owners would always let me in too. I remember being crazy about Brett Michaels..ha I KNOW..say what?... I had posters to cover every wall in my room of him and various other glam rockers that I idolized. gah! This all went on til I was 17ish.
Then when I hear songs from say Grateful Dead, The Cure, Linny or Smashin Pumpkins
Hearing this music brings peace to me even for just a few moments, it brings me back to a feeling loved feeling. I think about living on my own in my apartment...Well with friends..guys mainly. I was always better friends with guys. I did have a dear soul sista named Jecca that I lost contact with that used to sing and play guitar, she had the sweetest voice I have ever heard. I don't think I have ever been my truest self around any other female than her, wish I hadn't lost contact with her. We would go to local bars, sit outside with various hippiefied instruments and play. We would travel some, YES I was working but did this on weekends. We even went to a Rainbow Gathering, that was a huge eye opening event for me. It was wild for me to see how these people lived, I could appreciate it and respect them but there is no way I would ever want to live like that.
Then when I hear songs from bands such as Primus, NIN, Tool, Pantera
I think of an Ex of mine. I think of the hours on end that we would sit and talk...ofcourse we were high on speed....which I in noway miss but I do still miss him. We had a cool connection, he needed me and I wanted him. This went on for 5yrs moving from place to place. Even following me to College in Texas. I remember partying with him and my cool college friends, we stayed high constantly. It was so carefree... I wish we could all have seen what HUGE mistakes we were making.
Then atlast when I hear Southern Rock...I think of the fun times what Mike and I had while dating...going out dancing, enjoying each other, loving each other. I think of how that brough him out of his shell.
When I hear Praise and Worship music I think of how lucky I am to have gone thru so many phases in life but now I am back to where I need to be. I am back to praising God and am Thankful for everything I have gone thru.