How am I going to make a decision?
Ok, I am absolutely the worst person at making decisions. I can never decide what I want. Every time I think about things, I like, regret my decision. I am having the toughest time deciding how I am going to choose where to go to college.
Like, it is CONSTANTLY on my mind and it is basically all I think about when I'm not busy thinking about other things. Like, I try to decide what is best for me. But I don't know what is best for me. I absolutely love Grand Valley. If GVSU was 20 minutes away and had the reputation of U of M with the whole safe, small, fun atmosphere, I'd be there. In a heart beat. But to say "I go to U of M" sounds so much more... prestigeous than to say "I go to Grand Valley State". Not that Grand Valley degrees mean less than degrees from U of M, but going to U of M gives you that little extra... edge on the competition.
I am just struggling with this soooooooo much. I feel like crying everytime I think about it. I am going to have regrets no matter which school I choose. My heart tells me Grand Valley, while my brain tells me U of M. It just seems like... I dunno. I didn't work this hard all these years and prior to high school to get accepted to a place where I could have done mediocre in high school and been accepted. To say you go to the University of Michigan means you are a smart, capable person. Not that going to MSU or GVSU doesn't mean that, but I didn't get a 4.0 for nothing. I want my hard work to mean something. Now, if I do go to Grand Valley, I will for sure go to Honors College. Who would pass up those sweet dorms!?
Grand Valley offers me so much. It costs less, its absolutely beautiful, small, personal, great dorms, great food, safe feeling. So many great things about Grand Valley appeal to me. Heck, Dave and Matt are going there. lol. But then there are some huge draw backs. It's 2 hours away. I can't just, go home for dinner and come back to sleep in one day without planning. There isn't much to do on the actual campus and I have to go into Grand Rapids to find things to do. There aren't as many majors offered, and what if I choose to major in something they don't offer and I have to transfer? I'd be heartbroken. But I think my personality would fit right in with the people who go there. That is what everyone tells me.
But then everyone says I have the capability and the brain to do well at U of M. And that is where the conflict lies. I don't know if the students at U of M are people who I would like, fit in with. I'm not against diversity in any way, but I hate feeling like an idiot. I don't want to feel like an idiot at U of M. I know I'm pretty smart, but I'm no genius. But I think I could handle it. There are some ups to U of M, too. A degree means a lot, I can study basically anything there, there is always something to do, it is a school with great spirit and great sports (lol), I will meet so many people there and broaden my small scope of diverse friends. I've seriously lived in white-town my whole life and I don't know much about life outside of it. Thanks Livonia. Everyone there is smart, thankfully. Seeing as I don't like ignorant, stupid people. lol. It's 20 minutes from home. I can just have my mom pick me up and I can come home whenever I want. That is a huge comfort. But then there are some drawbacks. It's going to be extremely challenging, Ann Arbor hippies scare me (haha...no I'm serious), cities kinda scare me (but I guess I'd get used to it), the dorms suck beyond belief, community bathrooms, it is not personal by any means, big classes.
This is just so frustrating. Everyone I talk to. I ask them to say where I should go. And it takes everyone forever to think about it. Cuz I can do both. I can see myself at Grand Valley. And at U of M. They are completely opposite on almost every comparable point. How am I going to decide!? And I know everyone says, "You have time". Sure. But I want to know where I'm going next year. It will be such a huge weight off my shoulders. I want do decide by Christmas. So I can know whether I'm going to that competition at GVSU for scholarship money or not. This year, senior year, is so much fun. But it's also such a hard time in everyone's life. I'm so jealous of all those people who already know what they want to do and where they want to go. For God's sake, Chris has known he wanted to go to U of M since he was 5. I wanted to go there for the longest time, then in high school I took a look at other places and considered them, too.
MSU is out. My definite third choice. It just doesn't appeal to me at all. Too big, too large of a campus, just not the type of people I can see myself being with. Nothing against it, seeing as I applied to it and got in and all. It's just not me.
It doesn't help that I am undecided. Right now I'd consider a major in biology, physical therapy, journalism, or advertising/marketing. Grand Valley doesn't offer journalism. What if I choose that? That's the major problem with Grand Valley. Not as many options.
If anyone has any feelings or advice for me, I'd GREATLY appreciate it. If you have an idea of where you think would be best for me, please comment. I just like to hear opinions. Not that one person's opinion will sway me, but any new points or anything to help me would make my life so much better. I need help right now. *sigh*
<3 Paige
Like, it is CONSTANTLY on my mind and it is basically all I think about when I'm not busy thinking about other things. Like, I try to decide what is best for me. But I don't know what is best for me. I absolutely love Grand Valley. If GVSU was 20 minutes away and had the reputation of U of M with the whole safe, small, fun atmosphere, I'd be there. In a heart beat. But to say "I go to U of M" sounds so much more... prestigeous than to say "I go to Grand Valley State". Not that Grand Valley degrees mean less than degrees from U of M, but going to U of M gives you that little extra... edge on the competition.
I am just struggling with this soooooooo much. I feel like crying everytime I think about it. I am going to have regrets no matter which school I choose. My heart tells me Grand Valley, while my brain tells me U of M. It just seems like... I dunno. I didn't work this hard all these years and prior to high school to get accepted to a place where I could have done mediocre in high school and been accepted. To say you go to the University of Michigan means you are a smart, capable person. Not that going to MSU or GVSU doesn't mean that, but I didn't get a 4.0 for nothing. I want my hard work to mean something. Now, if I do go to Grand Valley, I will for sure go to Honors College. Who would pass up those sweet dorms!?
Grand Valley offers me so much. It costs less, its absolutely beautiful, small, personal, great dorms, great food, safe feeling. So many great things about Grand Valley appeal to me. Heck, Dave and Matt are going there. lol. But then there are some huge draw backs. It's 2 hours away. I can't just, go home for dinner and come back to sleep in one day without planning. There isn't much to do on the actual campus and I have to go into Grand Rapids to find things to do. There aren't as many majors offered, and what if I choose to major in something they don't offer and I have to transfer? I'd be heartbroken. But I think my personality would fit right in with the people who go there. That is what everyone tells me.
But then everyone says I have the capability and the brain to do well at U of M. And that is where the conflict lies. I don't know if the students at U of M are people who I would like, fit in with. I'm not against diversity in any way, but I hate feeling like an idiot. I don't want to feel like an idiot at U of M. I know I'm pretty smart, but I'm no genius. But I think I could handle it. There are some ups to U of M, too. A degree means a lot, I can study basically anything there, there is always something to do, it is a school with great spirit and great sports (lol), I will meet so many people there and broaden my small scope of diverse friends. I've seriously lived in white-town my whole life and I don't know much about life outside of it. Thanks Livonia. Everyone there is smart, thankfully. Seeing as I don't like ignorant, stupid people. lol. It's 20 minutes from home. I can just have my mom pick me up and I can come home whenever I want. That is a huge comfort. But then there are some drawbacks. It's going to be extremely challenging, Ann Arbor hippies scare me (haha...no I'm serious), cities kinda scare me (but I guess I'd get used to it), the dorms suck beyond belief, community bathrooms, it is not personal by any means, big classes.
This is just so frustrating. Everyone I talk to. I ask them to say where I should go. And it takes everyone forever to think about it. Cuz I can do both. I can see myself at Grand Valley. And at U of M. They are completely opposite on almost every comparable point. How am I going to decide!? And I know everyone says, "You have time". Sure. But I want to know where I'm going next year. It will be such a huge weight off my shoulders. I want do decide by Christmas. So I can know whether I'm going to that competition at GVSU for scholarship money or not. This year, senior year, is so much fun. But it's also such a hard time in everyone's life. I'm so jealous of all those people who already know what they want to do and where they want to go. For God's sake, Chris has known he wanted to go to U of M since he was 5. I wanted to go there for the longest time, then in high school I took a look at other places and considered them, too.
MSU is out. My definite third choice. It just doesn't appeal to me at all. Too big, too large of a campus, just not the type of people I can see myself being with. Nothing against it, seeing as I applied to it and got in and all. It's just not me.
It doesn't help that I am undecided. Right now I'd consider a major in biology, physical therapy, journalism, or advertising/marketing. Grand Valley doesn't offer journalism. What if I choose that? That's the major problem with Grand Valley. Not as many options.
If anyone has any feelings or advice for me, I'd GREATLY appreciate it. If you have an idea of where you think would be best for me, please comment. I just like to hear opinions. Not that one person's opinion will sway me, but any new points or anything to help me would make my life so much better. I need help right now. *sigh*
<3 Paige