*sigh*
Hmmn. Things have been so crazy lately. I've been on a constant roller coaster all of this break. At times it was the best, others it could have been better. But what can you do?
But now that its over, I am a bit scared because... well, it was a break from everything. And now I am going to see whether I can push myself in the direction I need, with all of the distractions of the usual grind and then some. I really don't know how things are going to play out because it seems like everything is changing, my way of thinking, how I am seeing people, and what I feel is important. It's like some doors have closed but thousands more have opened and I can just stroll on through any one I see fit. It feels really good to have those options, its a new sense of freedom. I feel a lot closer to everyone around me now. No more detachment. Its nice.
I did a few things that any other given day, I wouldn't have. And I was presented with things I easily could have done, but didn't. Complete control over myself without needing second thoughts, debating or remorse. Something I missed.
I met alot of new faces over break as well, along with seeing a few I feel I have neglected - People I have thoroughly missed (you know who you all are.) Again, the world is feeling open and full of possibilties. I was invited into a band, creamed a mailbox and rode pony under the best of company, signed my parent's marriage certificate, stayed up all night over and over with Bret, I shot some photography, and I sat up at Denny's for 4 hours meeting some of the most interestingly AWESOME people I have ever known. I think I even found a new friend in all of this...
I have been looking for comfort in all the wrong places...
Comfort isn't found in the things I want and need. Comfort is watching the two parents that you've never realized how much you love walk down the aisle together finally getting married... Comfort is falling asleep to Finch on the couch with a Chinchilla in your hoodie pocket. Comfort is found over thrilling conversation and cappacino in a Royal Oak coffee shop.
It's times like these I realize what I could have missed out on if things didn't happen the way they did.
But now that its over, I am a bit scared because... well, it was a break from everything. And now I am going to see whether I can push myself in the direction I need, with all of the distractions of the usual grind and then some. I really don't know how things are going to play out because it seems like everything is changing, my way of thinking, how I am seeing people, and what I feel is important. It's like some doors have closed but thousands more have opened and I can just stroll on through any one I see fit. It feels really good to have those options, its a new sense of freedom. I feel a lot closer to everyone around me now. No more detachment. Its nice.
I did a few things that any other given day, I wouldn't have. And I was presented with things I easily could have done, but didn't. Complete control over myself without needing second thoughts, debating or remorse. Something I missed.
I met alot of new faces over break as well, along with seeing a few I feel I have neglected - People I have thoroughly missed (you know who you all are.) Again, the world is feeling open and full of possibilties. I was invited into a band, creamed a mailbox and rode pony under the best of company, signed my parent's marriage certificate, stayed up all night over and over with Bret, I shot some photography, and I sat up at Denny's for 4 hours meeting some of the most interestingly AWESOME people I have ever known. I think I even found a new friend in all of this...
I have been looking for comfort in all the wrong places...
Comfort isn't found in the things I want and need. Comfort is watching the two parents that you've never realized how much you love walk down the aisle together finally getting married... Comfort is falling asleep to Finch on the couch with a Chinchilla in your hoodie pocket. Comfort is found over thrilling conversation and cappacino in a Royal Oak coffee shop.
It's times like these I realize what I could have missed out on if things didn't happen the way they did.