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why now? why me?
this is not how i imagined it happening.
then again. i tried not to imagine it at all.
Something inside me has awakened
It tells me what i thought was going well
it is a lie, not what it was.
this thing awakened, tells me plainly.
Where and to whom. But what to do
About my failures.
I still feel like it would be
Better if i just go away
hearts would mend, and aches will ease
But something just wont let me go
I can't walk away, can't take the chance
but also can't help mistrusting what i feel.
Emotions cloud judgement, especially mine.
This heart is Scarred, and afraid
And even still, through this pain
I can still feel something stirring again.
June 12, 2011
this is not how i imagined it happening.
then again. i tried not to imagine it at all.
Something inside me has awakened
It tells me what i thought was going well
it is a lie, not what it was.
this thing awakened, tells me plainly.
Where and to whom. But what to do
About my failures.
I still feel like it would be
Better if i just go away
hearts would mend, and aches will ease
But something just wont let me go
I can't walk away, can't take the chance
but also can't help mistrusting what i feel.
Emotions cloud judgement, especially mine.
This heart is Scarred, and afraid
And even still, through this pain
I can still feel something stirring again.
June 12, 2011