she speaks....
yup, i am back to talking at a regular rate. still sound a little winded all the time, and it still takes a lot of effort to be heard sometimes. And i seem to be spending all my time sleeping,but i am guessing that's my body's way of healing from the trauma.
also having trouble sleeping through the night, but i am closer now than i was a month ago now, i wake up about 4 or 5 AM. if i wake at 4 i try to go back to sleep, if i wake at 5 i try to stay up till 7 when i take meds.
when i left the hospital, then sent me with about 6 more medications, we had to buy me a bigger sorter for them, and now i take a bonafide handful for b-fast and dinner, and just slightly less for lunch and bedtime
i have an appointment set for august 31, i believe that is either my radiation appt, or my counseling for radiation appt. but my first follow up appt. doc said i was healing fine, and everything looked good.
the problems with my mother in law and her psyche issues, are pushing me out of this house, the woman believes that self abuse is ok. she calls it punishment, and it was instilled in her by HER own mother. if ANYTHING goes wrong in this house, it is automatically her fault and she should be punished, and since noone else in this house will punish her, she does it to herself. It pisses me off so bad, that now when she starts with the guilt thing, i will get up in her face screaming at her to knock it off.. and i have told her if she slaps herself in my presence again, i will walk out the door, calling emergency psych services on my way out.
i believe everyone in this house needs help, including me.
i have told her she cannot control the world, and she needs to realize she doesn't control what other people do, and that means it isn't her fault all the time.
especially stuff with the boarders. She gets so nosy, asking them where they're going and what time they'll be home every time they step out the door. i keep trying to gently tell her it isn't her business. i guess i am gonna have to try to sit her down and explain this isn't Andrew and Christina, it really isn't her business, unless they offer to tell, which they usually don't.
also having trouble sleeping through the night, but i am closer now than i was a month ago now, i wake up about 4 or 5 AM. if i wake at 4 i try to go back to sleep, if i wake at 5 i try to stay up till 7 when i take meds.
when i left the hospital, then sent me with about 6 more medications, we had to buy me a bigger sorter for them, and now i take a bonafide handful for b-fast and dinner, and just slightly less for lunch and bedtime
i have an appointment set for august 31, i believe that is either my radiation appt, or my counseling for radiation appt. but my first follow up appt. doc said i was healing fine, and everything looked good.
the problems with my mother in law and her psyche issues, are pushing me out of this house, the woman believes that self abuse is ok. she calls it punishment, and it was instilled in her by HER own mother. if ANYTHING goes wrong in this house, it is automatically her fault and she should be punished, and since noone else in this house will punish her, she does it to herself. It pisses me off so bad, that now when she starts with the guilt thing, i will get up in her face screaming at her to knock it off.. and i have told her if she slaps herself in my presence again, i will walk out the door, calling emergency psych services on my way out.
i believe everyone in this house needs help, including me.
i have told her she cannot control the world, and she needs to realize she doesn't control what other people do, and that means it isn't her fault all the time.
especially stuff with the boarders. She gets so nosy, asking them where they're going and what time they'll be home every time they step out the door. i keep trying to gently tell her it isn't her business. i guess i am gonna have to try to sit her down and explain this isn't Andrew and Christina, it really isn't her business, unless they offer to tell, which they usually don't.